Man I fuckin' didn't get the job at Ardne, shoulda known though eh? I mean it takes fuckin' well forever to get any kind of job down here.

Well atleast Defiance is keeping me happy, ya know if ya put in this code, ya can see Kain fight with a cardboard tube. I tell ya it's more fun to kick Sarafan off the balcony with a cardboard tube then it is with the Soul Reaver. I'm going through it and seeing all these achingly gorgeous backgrounds again. I just have to stop and just glare in awe at them. I think this is much better then the manufactured world of SR2, sure it was great, but Defiance just has so much more detail that brings this game to life. It almost seems as if the world of Nosgoth is truly alive.

I'm not going to say much about the end, since my best bud is the only person in the world who hasn't beaten it yet. Well can't blame her, she was in Africa when the game came out, but she still should of finished the game by now!! Hurry up Lilith I want to talk Defiance with ya!!! *watches her hide around the corner*

I so don't want to go looking for a job at the moment, I just feel as if what's the point in this brutal quest? Well to make the story short, there isn't. Most of the seasonal hirering has been done, and therefore I don't think I will be able to get a job for Christmas. That is unless by chance a miracle happens and I highly doubt that will be happening to me. But right now I would take anything. I can't stand being here, in this house with my dad. He is driving me nuts, he's always pickin' on me with the fact that I don't have a job yet, and he refuses to stop. It gets to the point where I just want to clobber his face in with a sledgehammer. I love my dad, but he doesn't have to mentally abuse people like that, and he doesn't have to annoy them eaither at every chance he gets. I think he has a problem, he really needs to calm himself down or he's going to die of a heart attack.

Speaking of family, my sister isn't doing so good. She may or may not have a bad case of cancer, and I'm really worried for her. She went in for some tests, and we won't know the results for awhile yet. I just hope she pulls through this ok. In a way now I wish I hadn't left, because then I would be able to be there for her. But other then that, she's ok mentally, she's not letting this get her down, which I'm glad for. It's the Christmas Season, I wouldn't let it get me down eaither. ^_^