Saturday, May 24, 2003

Mood ~ relaxed
Music ~ MuchMusic is playin' in the background

Well it seems I'll be sharin' a room in about a week. Amber is movin' back in, and me and Ang are going to sit down with her some time, and disscuss the household rules. Like not stealing anything of mine and not wearing my clothes and not scrapping up my stuff, like CD's and video games. Ya she burnt her bridges and now she has to rebuild. And with brebuilding means she has to go back to school, and she will have to pay rent. A bit more then me, but that's ok, she really doesn't have anything planned with that money like I do. I have school to worry about.

Anyways I have Sunday off, I'm soo glad, it's the first time I've gotten a day off in two weeks, and I think I have Monday off as well, but I'm not to sure on that, I think I put some of dates down wrong. If not then I guess I'll ask for hours on Monday. I'm becoming greedy when it comes to hours and money, I want tons so I can get out of here faster. I don't want to stay long enough to let this place grow on me, like many have let it. I can't believe many stay here because they love it. How? Why? Of all places eh? I still don't understand as to why my sister loves it.

But anywho, ya know I was flippin' through the pages of the june edition of PSM, the very one that has the first look of LOK Defiance, but ya know what else it held within it's pages? The annual video game chick swim suit addition, and ya know what? Why don't they have something for us girls? Ya it sounds like a geeky idea, but it would of been worthe it to see Squall back in 99 in a speedo of some sort...or just even in plain boxer type swim shorts. This is unfair, there are so many loveable cute pixel animated guys in the video game world, and us girls never get to see them in their beach wear. It isn't like there isn't many gaming gals out there. In fact there are tons. Loads and loads of girls that just lust after Dante, and yes I did say lust. But of course they lust after him, he's damn sexy for a drawin'. But no, all we get are these girls stapped up in very little clothing.

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

Mood ~ A bit pissed
Music ~ Nothin' at the moment

Man I'm just so mad at the moment, I hate this town and I hate livin' here, and especially hate gettin' this crap from my sister as to why aren't I workin' more and why don't I get a full time job and whatnot. Well excusee me I have two part time jobs, and when I work bothe on the same day which I do a lot, I work more then full hour days, at times I'm workin' eleven hours, with only one half hour break!!! Shit on me for not workin' hard, god I'm pissed, then she gives me crap for havin' a day off, but takin' a entire week off is ok? I only get one day off a week, and by law it states that I'm supposed to have two, but I want the hours, I mean I haven't had a day off in almost three weeks, so piss on me, I don't care anymore. I work hard, and all I get is my money grubbin' sister buggin' me all the time to get more hours so I can pay her my flippin' rent. 200 bucks a month was the deal, I do pay it, and now she's all like why don't ya get a place of yer own, but you see I have a problem with that. Plain and simple, I can't, I don't have the money, all that I do make goes into the bank for art school. I so want to leave, Not only is this city borin' but now I'm gettin' shit from my sister for no apperent reason.

She syas she's a poor mother. Poor my ass!!! She works for the government and makes tons of cash, I mean she ain't poor that's for sure, but she seems to think so, and wants everyone to feel sad for her because she'a single mom now. It's not like she is goin' through a hard time, she met a wonderful guy, makes good money and has great friends. She should be grateful, not mouppin' every second she gets because she's got this damn thought in her head that her life is harsh and full of depresstion. Ha try my life, my life is hard, look at me I'm a starvin' artist. Sure I got it good, but still I don't make what she makes, I don't have to many friends here, I feel alone at times, and despperaly just want to hop on a plane and fly home. To where I feel loved...because I don't feel it here at times. I feel like I'm just a pain here. My sister got mad at me the other day because apperently I left a trail of dirt from my room to downstairs to out the door. Sure I had to run up the stairs, I was goin' to be late to work if I had to take my boots off, I forgot somethin' and when I got home all I got was a lecture on not leavin' a trail of dirt in thouse, which I really couldn't see that morning when I walk ed back down the stairs. But my sister has x-ray vision I swear to god.

I so want to go, ya I know I've said it a million times, but I do, I miss home.

Tuesday, May 20, 2003

I'm bein' pestered to post in here once again. But the answer as to why I haven't posted in me blog is simple. I have nothin' to write about. With the exceptions that all I've been doin' for the last few weeks is work work work. I haven't had a break in almost two weeks. No matter, I do need the money. I downloaded WinMX to the computer because our KaZaA has gone ka-put on us. I don't know exactly what it is, but nieather WinMX nor KaZaA seem to want to connect for us and refuse to search or download anything at all.

I've been playin' Final Fantasy 7 along with many other games that I'm playin'. But ya know I forgotten how much I truely love this game. I now have the sudden urges to draw Cloud, Vincent and Sephiroth once again. God I love Sephys hair, it just flows everywhere and is so much fun to sketch. I used to be so infactuated with him in the days of FFVII. But then again I always seem to adore the villains with the long white hair. Why that is I don't have a clue. Prehaps the silvery tint in their hari adds sex appeal. But then again Vinny with his raven hair....

Anyways I'll get off the topic of sexy Final Fantasy boys and move onto this funky quiz I found sittin' on the net...

1. WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR LJ USERNAME?
Since this not being a LJ, I'll just let ya in on my usual cyber name. Fangy I got back in high school for my obsessive love of the vampires, and it just kinda stuck, and I'm still called Fangy to this day. However Bloodfang is what I could only get on ezboard when I first started postin' on NR, and so I dunno...it may say Bloodfang9 up top there, but everyone knows me as Fangs or Fangy. The 9...well I guess Bloodfang was already taken, and the 9 was the only number besdie it that consisted of one digit.


2. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MAKEOVER?
Nope.

3. NAME ALL MEMBERS OF THE BEATLES
Paul McCartney, Ringo Starr, John Lennon, and George Harrison. I think.

4. WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE?
I've been to the states for a few monthes here and there.

5. ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY.
MSN, for lettin' me talk to all my friends who I miss so dearly

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY?
Well the one I can only remember at the moment is when my friend Sharon was doin' this drama project for Shakespears days way back in grade 10, and she was practicin' her lines as one of the witches in McBeth and she was so hyper that she ran around doin' her part and fell of the stage. She then got back up and fluttered across the school gym.


7. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING.
Nothin' to big, but nothin' to little, and somewhere in Rome would be nice


8. MY FIRST HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN I WAS...
Second grade. There was this guy I had a kiddy crush on and he gave me this cool awesome batman pin on Valentines day, but I found out that only myself and the cute blone in the corner got one to. I was so mad he was two timin', lol

9. WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO THIS SUMMER?
Work, work, work. Save up cash to go to art school, and get the hell outta this place

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW?
Too many to list. Bring me to life by Evaessence, Lick the maypole by Medeavial babes...yes I do like them>_>

11. WRITE A LINE FROM ANY SONG.
Innocence is the face that always lies
Innocence is the wish for some
But it's something I cant buy
What are you trying to prove
So many mountains to move
And all your demons are heaven sent
My lost cathartik friend

12. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM HOUSE:
One of those warhouse apartments...ya I would love one of those right down in New York prehaps....


13. YOUR TYPICAL SLEEPWEAR:
I got these flanes PJs with cute puppies on them that I actually got from my own puppy 0.o That or a shirt is ok to.

14. WHAT'S IN YOUR WALLET?
Your going to make me list everything....aren't you? Well ok here it goes....my bank card, that I'm not allowed to spend ver much one since everythin' is goin' to artschool...the damn thing is so tempting though....my SIN card, I still have my ID from BC sitin' in here and I really don't plan to change it to a NT one. Birth certificate, two old rogers cards that I should throw away since I can't use em up here, medical card, my food safe certicate card thingy, La Senza ra club card...buy ten get one free....wow I even have a old go card in here from high school...nice pic of me though, prehaps that's why I kept it.A Blockbuster card from home, and my bankers bussiness card.reciets from the X-men movie, from some clothes I bought, and oh my reciet from wal-mart when I bought DMC2...bacnking recietsand one from KFC....I got to stop spendin' money...bad me....


15. HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET RIGHT NOW?
Zero dollars and zero cents. I so rarely have actual cash.


16. TELL US ABOUT ANY OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS.
Ya know what, my mind is blanck, and I can't think of one right now...ain't that odd 0.o


17. WHAT ARE THE FIRST FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD SPLURGE ON IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE?
Clothes, Video games & systems, houses, cars, computer crap


18. WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BEFORE-GOING-TO-BED RITUAL?
Approach bed, strip off shirt, pull down my jeans and snuggle into my pjs, turn on the TV, then turn off light, flick channels, usually find nothing of interest, flick off the TV, roll over, and let the night take me away


19. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST/FUNNIEST NICKNAME ANYONE HAS EVER CALLED YOU?
There is this one nickname I HATE, and if anyone I know starts callin' me it I will freak out on you and I garuntee you shall not survive. I love ichibon noodles and I got the nick 'noodles' from my dad, and to this day when he wants to piss me off, he calls me that, and it drives me nuts!!!!

20. NAME THREE [3] OF YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS.
Toughie....I have a soft spot for Simba from Disneys the Lion King....Vegeta from DBZ>_>....and Meier from Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust