Saturday, January 11, 2003

Mood ~ PMSing, in other words, real bitchy
Music ~ Papa Roach

Some people have the nerve to tell me they don't fucking care about anythin', look at the comment below by some guy named James, ya know the one for my art whether or not to leave inked or color it. All I gotta say if ya don't have anything nice to say then don't bloody well say nothin' at all. It's a good thing I'm to strong a gal to be broken by shit like that, some people can be seriously hurt by that one small opinion. I wonder if "James" can draw? Well I don't give a damn. Should I care about one guys tiny opinion, no I shouldn't. Who gives a fuck!! I draw wonderfully, and that's all that matters, screw the whole friggin' world and all it's inferior beings known as men. Like a said before anything and everything with a penis is known to be a dangly thing without a brain.

Friday, January 10, 2003

Mood ~ Tired
Music ~ Nada, nuthin', zippo=P

Well it seems to be official, I'm moving up to Yellowknife on the 29th of March. Angie and the kids are coming down and when they go back up I'm going with 'em. I'm going to miss Vancouver terriably, miss my friends, my family, and I'm sure as hell going to miss my siskobabes[my dog, his name is Sisko].

Well atleast I will be with family, since Angie is my sister. But anywho it is money, money that I do need in order to go to art school, things just ain't workin' out here, I can't seem to get a job and actually hold onto it. Not that I've ever gotten fired or quit, it's just that all the jobs I seem to find are temporarely, ya know the opposite of permanet. But god, is the money good up there, so guess what I'm going, I really need to start getting a career going ya know, that and I've had enough of the retail bussiness. I just want to get going with everything. Certain things have been holding me back, family for one thing, for years I could do nothin', because my Nana had Alhzimers, and she was still living with us, so could I get a job or go to art school? No I had to stay at home. Well I guess those are just the thing ya do for family. But now I'm tired of it, I need to get free ya know, and if moving up to Yellowknife is the way to do it, then I'm all for it. But I'm still going to really miss my dog.

I should throw a big party before I leave and invite everyone I know, including some people that say they might not be able to see me because they may be to busy with school and work and whatnot....sheesh all I got to say this is my best friend she should MAKE time!!!! I would for her. I'll see her before I go, even if I have to drag her outta class or work for that matter.

I know just how to do it to.

Step One) Place rare spawn with cloak outside her work or classroom door.

Step two) Get her to notice the rare spawn.

Step three) Ready myself with big baseball bat to knock her out with as she comes after the rare spawn.

Step four) Have big bean bag to tie her up in

Step five) Walk to car, but make sure no one notices that you are carrying a large bag with a body in it, they may think you are from the mofia.

Step six) Put bag in back of car and drive off.

See, simple eh? But I just may do that...not hitting my friend and dragging her throw her school in a large smelly bag, but the party sounds good to me.

Thursday, January 09, 2003

Need your help kiddies!! I don't know if I should color this in Photoshop, of just leave it black and white? Because it looks damn good inked eh? But I don't know.....*hits head on desk*
Mood ~ Ok
Music ~ Gorlliaz

Agh love my new layout, all creepy like and black with the damned pink bunny, it has a "gorillaz" feel to it. Anyways I can't for the life of me friggin' well change the bloody color of the panels of the damned archive, their still flippin' grey!!! Oie if anyone out there knows where exactly the code is to change the flippin' panel color, please tell me, damn thing doesn't want to be found by me.

Well I sent a terriable disturbing email of total bitchyness to the spanish chick that seems to hate me, ya I know that's mean and all, but damn it, she was mean to me. So guess what? Ya don't want to mess with Elsie McNish I can tell ya that, and so can all my ex-boyfriends. Ha if they ever had the balls to come see me again that is. Don't mess with fire, or your going to get yer ass burnt.

I just hope she writes back, prehaps then I may get some answers, and if not then email wars it is.

On another note, I was going through some of my old drawings last night, and I mean I have a ton of them, got me a whole damn friggin' folder on me bed that is just spewing out art work like there is no tommorow. Unfortunalty for the trees that got shopped down for me to draw all this old crap on, I reluctenatly threw a bunch of it out. Why you ask? But it's old and crappy shit, that's why!!!

It's amazing how far your characters come, and how the evolve from what they where to where they are now. I mean Roa was terriable, good for then, bad now. So I threw a bunch of old prismacolored drawings of her out, and a few damn Myth junk out as well. I'm running out of room. I swear I kill a couple of trees in a monthe or so.

I'm not proud of it, but I'm a tree killer, but hell I recycle so...not that much of a biggie I guess =P

I want to sell some of my artwork, but I need to get a fanbase first, and that's awfully hard. I just wonder if people would actually buy it?
If by any chance you have stumbled upon me and wonder what the friggin' hell is going on? Well I'm changing my layout, but I'm picky and don't quiet know what I want yet so =P

Wednesday, January 08, 2003

Watched Buffy, Buffy killed evil "first" vampire, Buffy got Spike back from evil menece that is disturbing the balance of the land, when infact it is really Buffys fault. Confused by all this, then GO WATCH BUFFY!!!

Ok L8ter But I'm happy she got Spike back safe and sound.
Mood ~ happy
Music ~ The Vines =P

Ok some people are quiet odd. I got these emails awhile back, and they where all in spanish. And for the lack of my attention in spanish class during high school I could only pick up a couple of words. The other thing that was odd about this email is that whoever it was, sent me a few screenshots of Umah from Blood Omen 2. Which I couldn't understand as to why this person would sent me screenshots. Plus this girl added me to her list on MSN, and today she is finally online, so she starts up the conversation, and then tells me about how much she hates me?

Ok most people don't hate me, especially for absalutly no reason? I asked her why she hated me, and all I got was and angery emoticon, and the phrase BITCH in spanish. I could care less about what this snot headed of a asshole has to say about me, but now I'm curious as to why she hates me? The girl doesn't even know me.

Hell I'm a likeable person, hence why I got good friends, including a few good online friends. But what the hell, if your going to tell me ya hate me, atleast have the guts to tell me as to why you hate me. I guess some people just have don't have to much of the brain wrokin' for 'em. I hate arrogent people. I mean what makes them more important then I? And what makes them do such a thing, I haven't got the slightest idea.

Well I still got her on my list, so I'm just waiting for her to come online next time, unless she has me on block, ha I wouldn't doubt that. But if she does show her face to me again I'm going to pounce on her with a stack of questions as to why is she such a bloody snob, and what right does she have to hate me, with lack of a reason?

I must of asked her why a couple of times, and all I got was a buncha nonsence...ah well, gotta love thoughtless people though, so much fun eh?

In other news my best bud Suzanne, aka Lilith just broke up with her ass of a boyfiriend, you can read her rants here. I swear every living thing with a penis lacks any kind of intelligence. Not that I hate males, hell I got a few good friends that are males, and sorry to you guys, this ain't you. She said she has given up on men, hell I don't blame her. Some of the guys she's dated...well all i gotta say is yikes, sorry Lilith but it is true. But hell we laugh about it later on anyways.

Damn men what the hell they good for, breaking peoples hearts like that, but she's ok about it ya know. Her firends took her out to get her drunk. The suceeded. But it all let to a Rabbits cage that actually turned out to be a Grocery cart. My friend Sharon, the owner of the bunny, is so damn cheap I tell ya. She doesn't want to spend money on a good cage for her bunny, so she insists on having this big friggin' grocery cart that's turned over for the damned rabbits cage, that sits in the way of course, in the living room. Which in turn stinks up the place.
And it will stick it up even more because sharon is to damn lazy for her own good, hell one time she kicked a hanging plant basket that was hanging over bed, and of course when she kicked it, it fell and landed on her bed, and made a mess of it. But did Sharon clean it up? Nope, instead she slept on the couch for two days.

I have odd friends, which inturn makes my life a hella lot more interesting so it's all ok.

Well I'm One hundered percent sure I want to go up to Yellowknife for a couple of monthes to work my ass off so i can buy me my own computer, and finally go off to artschool. Jobs down here suck, they are so fucking hard to get? God I tell ya, ya got more ditsy people workin' these days, you often ponder as to where did all the smart people go? Well anyways I got to phone up my sister and ask questions such as rent and whatnot. Going to be hella hard time to get a hold of her since she's always chattin' on the phone with a certain somebody, hehehehehe. All I can say is good for her, but I want to talk to her to Damn it!!

Tuesday, January 07, 2003

Lordy Lordy, oh how Dante is so awesomely...well awesome. I really REALLY want this game. I mean I loved the first Devil May Cry, even though it was a bit, how do you say, silly. But damn was a great game. One of those I will never trade in.
Looky Looky!! A fish...well ok prehaps not, but look anyways I changed my layouts..again ya I know, but these ones are goodies, not to crazy, but just adds enough umff ya know?

Anyways looky..Original and, Fanart.

Anyways...ya know the book I'm reading, the second in the Vampire Chronicles, The Vampire Lestat, well for the first time in a few good years I'm actually enjoying a book. When I told people I was actually readin' they kinda stopped and starred a bit. What can I say...a hella lot of books just don't catch my eye, sure a good book is nice to read, but like I said it has to be a good book. But it's not like I never read. I read all the time, and no i don't mean just readin' comics, I read the paper, and I read books on History and whatnot.

But anywho this book is awesome because it tells all about Lestats life even before he was a Vampire and how he was just a plain old guy like the rest of us. Although the book is kinda depressing at times, it has it's moments ya know. But overall a good read, about time a vampire fanatic like myself actually started reading the second book eh? I've never actually read Interview, but I've seen the movie so many god damn times...that reading it would just be a waste of money since I usually don't read many books that had movies based on them, since I already know what is going to happen. Well most books anyways, some movies completely detour from the book, while others like the Lord of the Rings and Interview were right outta the books pages. So why bother buyin' it when I want to know what happens in the second chapter, see, waste of money...But I think I'll but Interview just for the hell of it, just so I can have it.


Monday, January 06, 2003

*wants this, and this, and ya can't forget this one.

I would really also like THIS!!!, but alas it is already bought and sold.

They also have a Dante which I so adore, and a Kuja

I can't believe someone would just make these wonderful pieces of cuteness, and just give them away like that, hell if I could sew I make a bunch of them and keep them all to myself. But ya gotta love UFOcatcher for the stuff they sell. It makes the stuff on ebay look blah.
Agh I'm so glad my comments work, but why are they all sitting next to the date and whatnot? I'm confusedO_o
I put in a new comments system I hope it works, and doesn't screw up my damn blogger again =P
Mood ~ I don't knowO_o?
Music ~ A many number of things on Winamp

Ya know what I want?

Everyone else seems to have people making them one? Lichie has someone making her one, But I want one to damn it, just that I rather have kain plushie then a Moe plushie.

Why is it that I am cursed with no abilities what so ever when it comes to sewing? I want a Kain Plushie*pouts*
If I had money I would pay whoever that makes one to make one for me. But alas I am broke, until I get my next job. Prehaps I should just take a chance and actually make one, I mean my mother can't sew, but she can make stuffed animals, it's just that Kain would be rather hard to uhhh...sewO_o

And I want a SR kain, not a BO Kain....Sr Kain is better. So that makes even "harder".

Ok I'll stop with my ramblings of kain and the entire friggin' series, but I can't help it, I ever so want one that I can throw around, and huggle. I can't help it, I'm a Kain fangirl =P


Sunday, January 05, 2003

Well I got rid of me icky wallpapers, from the time when I first got photoshop, and didn't really know what the friggin' hell I was doin' with it. I got better ones now, that sit on my desktop, even though everyone hates it. Nobody likes all the blood and gore, and violence and whatnot. But since I'm the only that knows anything at all about computers, only I can take it off, and I don't intend to.

I could upload them all, but that would mean making another page for wallpapers and I just erased my most shameful ones, so maybe one day I will. But it's highly unlikely=P

And if ya ever so want my wallpapers, then screw you, I ain't puttin' more up, until I feel like it=P My site, my rules=P Agh I'm just being bitchy, don't mind me.

Oh well more room for my pics.

My bloomin' dog has been driving me nuts the past couple o' days, he just will not let me be, I tell ya he absalutly insists on being at my side. My mom just say he loves me, I love him to, but bloody hell he doesn't have to be at me side all the time now does he?

Pets, I tell ya!!

Agh I got to work on my friggin' resume tommorow, got to get my ass out on the hunt again for a job since my last one was only up 'tis Christmas. Which was ok, gave me money to buy presents and whatnot. But now I miss the feel of the crispy dollar bills that I once held in my hands as I gave it away to buy lattes every morning. I tell ya I ain't ever doing that again, Kiddies listen up, don't waste money on Lattes and Hot Chocolates at Starbucks, I know they taste good, but is it really worthe it? Those friggin' things are like five bucks a pop.

Well atleast I got more then lattes outta my hard earned commistion money. I tell ya on Boxing day i must of spend four hundred dollars. No kidding, and now I'm broke. But atleast I got me some new clothes and whatnot.

Ya know what? Speaking of shopping...Is it just me or has all the action Figures that are out and about seem old?

Sure Macfalane Toys are great, they are the best, but is it just me or are all the spawn toys just seem to look like each other more and more each time a new set comes out? I wish they try something new, be a bit more creative ya know? I wish they would do LOK toys, hell Raziel is right up there alley, plus it would be a change from the adverage spawn. Granted, Macfarlen toys has done things like the MGS2 line of toys, but I dunno, maybe it's just me, but they need to expand, and not just within the company...well they need to do more things like teaming up with people, like they did with the MGS2 toys. But anyways, they do also need to be a bit more creative with there spawn Action Figures, 'cause people like me, usually tend to get tired of the same old thing in a new package.

My best bud Lilith is making a site, ok that's great, fine, wonderful...but the thing is she finally gets a couple of banners up for me to link her up to and they are flippin' huge....most banners that are used as links are 200x40 in pixels. Hell when she started makin' banners that size, I thought they were banners for like the main page or somethin', but link banners, no way. I guess I'm just going to have to wait for her to make something a bit smaller. Or until she reads this a makes a few that are smaller for the rest of us that do want to link her, but need SMALLER banners.

I wish she just let me make her a few banners, I love to make banners, one of my favorite things to do on Photoshop, besides painting a picture.

Anywho good more added to my site, ya I know it was missing that old charm from those AOL days, but I'm gettin' it back to where it was. That and I finally added a few little things here and there to some other pages of mine like the links page, and whatnot...got to think of something for the Junk page now.

Anyways I won't go on about my dumb site. I'm just glad people can see it now. But I do have to get a new server, gotta get rid of geoshities.

I'm finding oh so wonderful things on Photoshop now that I never knew about or didn't bother with, until I got my book. It's such a complex program, and most of the stuff I already knew about while I read through the book, but some of it I didn't...not that I wouldn't find out about it, I just hadn't gone that far with my exploration of the entire friggin' program.

Ya know it's damn friggin' cold outside, but the sun sure does look pretty ya know, it has that frosty look to it. That cold crisp feeling to it outside, but with a bit of warmth to it because of the sun. Kinda nice.

You know I'm running out of things to bitch about when I start yappin' about the weather, so I'll shut up now.