Mood ~ Happy
Music ~ LOK Defiance trailer music

Oh my GOD!!! Matrix reloaded was awesome!! Ok maybe it was lacking story, but hello did the first one have a story to begin with? Yes it did have a bit, but it wasn't compelling or anything, just a lot of good old fashioned thrashin'. I loved the twin bothers and their ghostly demonic forms when they go all misty like. And Neo, well Neo was fabulous. Gotta love Keanu Reeves eh?

Anyways ya, I'm totaly in love with that film, it's nice to see so many good movies out for once..as you may have noticed I'm picky on my movies that I see in the theatre, since it is so god damn expencesive. But ya Matrix Reloaded was worthe the twelve bucks. It was just one of those movies ya had to see on the big screen.

But this has been a day of lazzyness and watchin' crap. I actually just finished watchin' the Buffy season final.....and I can't believe Spike, of all people, died!!! Sure she may of kissed Angel in the beggining, but it was nothin' ya can tell in her eyes that she loved him just as she said it right before he sacrificed himself. Damn it!! Spike was my fav, and they have to go off and kill him!!! But atleast his sacrifice was 'honoerable'. I'm glad Buffy is goin' to Cleveland, maybe then she can actually get some kind of peace since most of the women on earth are now Slayers thanks to Willows funky spell. But still...Spike...I cryed when he died, but it was the way he was going to go ya know, he had a big smirk on his face, and I just loved him even more.

It's to bad Anya died, I wish Andrew had, that kid is so damn annoyin', I mean ya Anya was to, but she was funny annoyin' ya know? Poor Xander, they just kinda got back together and all, and she dies, but atleast she died fightin'. But I guess it's ok, I mean she did live such a long life, and she actually died for something she really strongly stood for. Still breaks my heart though.

I wonder if Buffy will go on fightin' or not? I don't know if she can live a normal life, it may be hard for her. To get started on that path anyways. But enough of my Buffy banter....now I'm depressed, since it was the Series Final, what the hell am I goin' to watch now eh?

But all in all the Season Final was great, I think they spent more money on this piticular episode, then in any other one they had ever done, I mean the light blastin' from Spike was marvelous, and the whole town just sinkin' into the hellhole was awesome. But I dunno, it seems they kinda rushed through makin' it, maybe just me but it was still great, but it just didn't seem complete ya know. But I have to say the show had a great run, I loved it dearly, and soaked up every minute of every new episode from the time it first came out to the final show. I loved it, I thought it was brilliant, and now it has come to a end, and what else can I say? That I will miss it dearly.

Mood ~ relaxed
Music ~ MuchMusic is playin' in the background

Well it seems I'll be sharin' a room in about a week. Amber is movin' back in, and me and Ang are going to sit down with her some time, and disscuss the household rules. Like not stealing anything of mine and not wearing my clothes and not scrapping up my stuff, like CD's and video games. Ya she burnt her bridges and now she has to rebuild. And with brebuilding means she has to go back to school, and she will have to pay rent. A bit more then me, but that's ok, she really doesn't have anything planned with that money like I do. I have school to worry about.

Anyways I have Sunday off, I'm soo glad, it's the first time I've gotten a day off in two weeks, and I think I have Monday off as well, but I'm not to sure on that, I think I put some of dates down wrong. If not then I guess I'll ask for hours on Monday. I'm becoming greedy when it comes to hours and money, I want tons so I can get out of here faster. I don't want to stay long enough to let this place grow on me, like many have let it. I can't believe many stay here because they love it. How? Why? Of all places eh? I still don't understand as to why my sister loves it.

But anywho, ya know I was flippin' through the pages of the june edition of PSM, the very one that has the first look of LOK Defiance, but ya know what else it held within it's pages? The annual video game chick swim suit addition, and ya know what? Why don't they have something for us girls? Ya it sounds like a geeky idea, but it would of been worthe it to see Squall back in 99 in a speedo of some sort...or just even in plain boxer type swim shorts. This is unfair, there are so many loveable cute pixel animated guys in the video game world, and us girls never get to see them in their beach wear. It isn't like there isn't many gaming gals out there. In fact there are tons. Loads and loads of girls that just lust after Dante, and yes I did say lust. But of course they lust after him, he's damn sexy for a drawin'. But no, all we get are these girls stapped up in very little clothing.

Mood ~ A bit pissed
Music ~ Nothin' at the moment

Man I'm just so mad at the moment, I hate this town and I hate livin' here, and especially hate gettin' this crap from my sister as to why aren't I workin' more and why don't I get a full time job and whatnot. Well excusee me I have two part time jobs, and when I work bothe on the same day which I do a lot, I work more then full hour days, at times I'm workin' eleven hours, with only one half hour break!!! Shit on me for not workin' hard, god I'm pissed, then she gives me crap for havin' a day off, but takin' a entire week off is ok? I only get one day off a week, and by law it states that I'm supposed to have two, but I want the hours, I mean I haven't had a day off in almost three weeks, so piss on me, I don't care anymore. I work hard, and all I get is my money grubbin' sister buggin' me all the time to get more hours so I can pay her my flippin' rent. 200 bucks a month was the deal, I do pay it, and now she's all like why don't ya get a place of yer own, but you see I have a problem with that. Plain and simple, I can't, I don't have the money, all that I do make goes into the bank for art school. I so want to leave, Not only is this city borin' but now I'm gettin' shit from my sister for no apperent reason.

She syas she's a poor mother. Poor my ass!!! She works for the government and makes tons of cash, I mean she ain't poor that's for sure, but she seems to think so, and wants everyone to feel sad for her because she'a single mom now. It's not like she is goin' through a hard time, she met a wonderful guy, makes good money and has great friends. She should be grateful, not mouppin' every second she gets because she's got this damn thought in her head that her life is harsh and full of depresstion. Ha try my life, my life is hard, look at me I'm a starvin' artist. Sure I got it good, but still I don't make what she makes, I don't have to many friends here, I feel alone at times, and despperaly just want to hop on a plane and fly home. To where I feel loved...because I don't feel it here at times. I feel like I'm just a pain here. My sister got mad at me the other day because apperently I left a trail of dirt from my room to downstairs to out the door. Sure I had to run up the stairs, I was goin' to be late to work if I had to take my boots off, I forgot somethin' and when I got home all I got was a lecture on not leavin' a trail of dirt in thouse, which I really couldn't see that morning when I walk ed back down the stairs. But my sister has x-ray vision I swear to god.

I so want to go, ya I know I've said it a million times, but I do, I miss home.

I'm bein' pestered to post in here once again. But the answer as to why I haven't posted in me blog is simple. I have nothin' to write about. With the exceptions that all I've been doin' for the last few weeks is work work work. I haven't had a break in almost two weeks. No matter, I do need the money. I downloaded WinMX to the computer because our KaZaA has gone ka-put on us. I don't know exactly what it is, but nieather WinMX nor KaZaA seem to want to connect for us and refuse to search or download anything at all.

I've been playin' Final Fantasy 7 along with many other games that I'm playin'. But ya know I forgotten how much I truely love this game. I now have the sudden urges to draw Cloud, Vincent and Sephiroth once again. God I love Sephys hair, it just flows everywhere and is so much fun to sketch. I used to be so infactuated with him in the days of FFVII. But then again I always seem to adore the villains with the long white hair. Why that is I don't have a clue. Prehaps the silvery tint in their hari adds sex appeal. But then again Vinny with his raven hair....

Anyways I'll get off the topic of sexy Final Fantasy boys and move onto this funky quiz I found sittin' on the net...

1. WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR LJ USERNAME?
Since this not being a LJ, I'll just let ya in on my usual cyber name. Fangy I got back in high school for my obsessive love of the vampires, and it just kinda stuck, and I'm still called Fangy to this day. However Bloodfang is what I could only get on ezboard when I first started postin' on NR, and so I dunno...it may say Bloodfang9 up top there, but everyone knows me as Fangs or Fangy. The 9...well I guess Bloodfang was already taken, and the 9 was the only number besdie it that consisted of one digit.


2. HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MAKEOVER?
Nope.

3. NAME ALL MEMBERS OF THE BEATLES
Paul McCartney, Ringo Starr, John Lennon, and George Harrison. I think.

4. WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE?
I've been to the states for a few monthes here and there.

5. ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY.
MSN, for lettin' me talk to all my friends who I miss so dearly

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MEMORY?
Well the one I can only remember at the moment is when my friend Sharon was doin' this drama project for Shakespears days way back in grade 10, and she was practicin' her lines as one of the witches in McBeth and she was so hyper that she ran around doin' her part and fell of the stage. She then got back up and fluttered across the school gym.


7. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING.
Nothin' to big, but nothin' to little, and somewhere in Rome would be nice


8. MY FIRST HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN I WAS...
Second grade. There was this guy I had a kiddy crush on and he gave me this cool awesome batman pin on Valentines day, but I found out that only myself and the cute blone in the corner got one to. I was so mad he was two timin', lol

9. WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO THIS SUMMER?
Work, work, work. Save up cash to go to art school, and get the hell outta this place

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW?
Too many to list. Bring me to life by Evaessence, Lick the maypole by Medeavial babes...yes I do like them>_>

11. WRITE A LINE FROM ANY SONG.
Innocence is the face that always lies
Innocence is the wish for some
But it's something I cant buy
What are you trying to prove
So many mountains to move
And all your demons are heaven sent
My lost cathartik friend

12. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM HOUSE:
One of those warhouse apartments...ya I would love one of those right down in New York prehaps....


13. YOUR TYPICAL SLEEPWEAR:
I got these flanes PJs with cute puppies on them that I actually got from my own puppy 0.o That or a shirt is ok to.

14. WHAT'S IN YOUR WALLET?
Your going to make me list everything....aren't you? Well ok here it goes....my bank card, that I'm not allowed to spend ver much one since everythin' is goin' to artschool...the damn thing is so tempting though....my SIN card, I still have my ID from BC sitin' in here and I really don't plan to change it to a NT one. Birth certificate, two old rogers cards that I should throw away since I can't use em up here, medical card, my food safe certicate card thingy, La Senza ra club card...buy ten get one free....wow I even have a old go card in here from high school...nice pic of me though, prehaps that's why I kept it.A Blockbuster card from home, and my bankers bussiness card.reciets from the X-men movie, from some clothes I bought, and oh my reciet from wal-mart when I bought DMC2...bacnking recietsand one from KFC....I got to stop spendin' money...bad me....


15. HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET RIGHT NOW?
Zero dollars and zero cents. I so rarely have actual cash.


16. TELL US ABOUT ANY OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS.
Ya know what, my mind is blanck, and I can't think of one right now...ain't that odd 0.o


17. WHAT ARE THE FIRST FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD SPLURGE ON IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE?
Clothes, Video games & systems, houses, cars, computer crap


18. WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BEFORE-GOING-TO-BED RITUAL?
Approach bed, strip off shirt, pull down my jeans and snuggle into my pjs, turn on the TV, then turn off light, flick channels, usually find nothing of interest, flick off the TV, roll over, and let the night take me away


19. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST/FUNNIEST NICKNAME ANYONE HAS EVER CALLED YOU?
There is this one nickname I HATE, and if anyone I know starts callin' me it I will freak out on you and I garuntee you shall not survive. I love ichibon noodles and I got the nick 'noodles' from my dad, and to this day when he wants to piss me off, he calls me that, and it drives me nuts!!!!

20. NAME THREE [3] OF YOUR FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS.
Toughie....I have a soft spot for Simba from Disneys the Lion King....Vegeta from DBZ>_>....and Meier from Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust

My sister got home today and I finally got my carepackage!! It contained the following:
1) A red starbucks mug
2) Some truffles hot chocolate, some real fnacy stuff to.
3) Some green tea
4) Nandos Perry perry sauce *and I've been wanting some Nandos to, but Nandos doesn't exsist up here*
5) A ton of pics of Sisko *my puppy back home* including one in a frame.
6) and a terries orange =D
7) And this cute gaurdian angel thingy

I feel so loved, as I sit here and sip on my hot choclate in my starbucks mug, next time prehaps I should ask her to send up some Starbucks hot chocolate, and prehaps some mix of the caremel latte . God I miss that place so much!! The 'Java' Place here is crap, I had one sip of their lattes and spit it out. They may look like a Starbucks, but ain't anywhere close.

Mood ~ Hyper for some odd reason 0.o
Music ~ Marilyn Manson 0.o

I'm so excited for November to come!! This is from NR, and the pages are actually from the June edition of PSM. Now I can't wait, November can't come soon enough. When I first heard of this I was like hrmmm...need proof, but now that I actually got the proof I'm all hype!!

Just thought I'd pointin' that out, and now I'm off lookin' for me own copy of the June PSM, but I can't find it anywhere. Stores seem to be getting some of their June magazine stock but now all of it, including the two magazines that I want the most. OPM and PSM!!! I hat this place, I can never get anything when I want it, like in Vancouver!! It's always some lame sxcuss like the roads are closed. Oh well I'm going to get my money and get outta here, but first I have to work my ass off, which I am doing, since tommorow I do work nine hours. My boss from subway phoned me up today and asked if I could work from 11 to 3 instead of 11 to 5, and then work 4 to 9!? I was confused, I think I got her right, but she has that accent so sometimes it's hard to understand her, but meh I might as well go in tommorow mornin' and if I got it wrong then oh well, I go home until four.

I really want to buy a Cd of some sort, anything new, but i dunno what to get, and nor do I know if I wish to spend twentyfive bucks on a single CD!? Ya that's the price of them up here, and Wal-mart ain't that much better, only by a bit. They have pretty good prices with games, since I did buy Devil May Cry 2 the other day. Awesome game I must say, but getting back to the matter at hand. My Kazza hasn't worked ever since Ang screwed the computer over with her reformatting it from windows ME to XP. I mean it took all night to get my friggin' photoshop program workin'...well I won't go into that again, I'm pretty sure I bitched about it ealier.

But anyways I really don't want to pay that much for a Cd, unless of course I really want it, but until that moment arises, I'm going to fiddle with Kazza and hopefully get it workin' again.

Oh my sister gets back on Sunday sometime, and she's bringing a carepackage from home up with her. I sooo can't wait, it will be filled with things from home and quiet possiably some new things. I forgot pictures of my Siskos, so I'm beggin' for those. What? I love my dog!! and speaking of getting stuff, I get another paycheck tommorow from Subway, it's going to be sweet gettin' a check every Friday. And it will allow me to save up more money a lot fast to. So I can get the hell outta here. My paycheck is the only good thing about tommorow, I really don't want to work.....dare I say I just want to bang on the drum all day.

o_O

I wonder when I get my next day off?

I wonder if this will work, if not meh you didn't miss much...just a funky pic of what it was like if condoms had sponsers

Agh I'm sooo tired, and kinda jealous of my sister. She's going home *my home in Vancouver* tommorow for the week *well for a couple of days anyways* since my niece has to go in for a few special doctor appointments for stuff she can't get up here. I soo want to go with her and just stay at home. But atleast there is one good thing about her goin' there. I get the entire house to myself for awhile. And I get Wednsday off, and she'll be gone!!! I just prey to god that she doesn't call me from the japanese resturant or from Nandos or even worse EB!!! Or I will literally cry. I'm missin' home soo much. I miss everything about it. I do miss my friends and my family, especially my dog, but I really miss the surroundings of Vancouver and the rest of the lower mainland. I miss every single detail, and I'm just clinging to the fact that I'm makin' money up here and that's the only thig that's keeping me here. I walk through Yellowknife and just want to go home. I can tell ya one thing, I ain't ever coming back here after I'm gone.

My sister installed Windows XP the other day, and it is a damn friggin' piece of crap. I was up all last night downloading all my fuckin' programs into the computer, and for a long time it wouldn't take my fuckin' photoshop disk, sayin' it was damaged and shit. But I was like, "Uuuuhhhh...no!" So I sat up all night doin' this crap, and finally out of no where it just loaded up like that, right outta the blue. Why I don't know, but I am mighty thankful. That and it took y my scanner in to. *after awhile of figiting with it*

I dunno, I haven't made up my mind of XP. Everyone I know says it's crap, and even say they can't get some programs that should work with it, just don't friggin' work. My mom has it and they can't even get their scanner of printer to work with it. It may be the newest int technology, but it's crap, and yes it doesn't crash down on you all the time like Windows ME did, but that, and I assure you of this, is the only good thing about it!!

Agh I work all this week, with exceptions to Tuesday, I have that day off, and I hope I still get it off since my boss at Subway changes the shifts around all the fuckin' time and doesn't tell ya about it and then yells at you for being late or not showin' up because ya didn't know in the first place:p Ya I know it is my responsiblity to be at work on time and to keep my hours organized, but when yer the boss and you start shifting scheuals around it is your responsibility to tell the employee of your changes. Anyways we have this Super Soccer thing going on so no matter which job I work at it is extremly busy with kids!! They all come from all over Canada to play soccer UP HERE!? In the snow!? I don't get it, but Subway is the worste, it never ends, we had lineups going outside our door.

Speakin' of work we had this cool staff meetin' today, a four hour staff meetin' but it was cool, wel all had pizza and pop, got out boss to give us the basics, and had fun interfering with it, she's cool, she laughs right along with us*my boss that is*, but anywho, after the so called lechture we got to go around and try on all the clothes in the store and got all our pictures taken in funny poses in our "stock".

So it's ben a ok week so far, well it is the end of it now, but ya...Oh I saw X-men 2 the other night, actually on opening night. And what a kick ass movie, way better then the first. And is it just me or is Wolvie hotter in this movie then the first?? Oh well, I don't want to give the plot away so just go see it for yerself!!

Is it just me or is geoshities being more shity then usual, and that's not all, hell no!! For the last two days I haven't been able to get into my email account, well up until last night, but then it went back to havin' mental problems. Well yahoo, and geocities, are one in the same kinda deal, but yeesh c'mon get it together people!! I can get the main pages ok, but when I try to get pagebuilder or acctually get into my account, all I get is that the server is down or busy, or may be having temporary problems. It's worked for the last few weeks that I have been here, so it's the server!! Damn you all to hell geochities and yer gay gettogethers of tryin' to conquer the known online world. Piss on all of ya's!!!!! All I wanted to do was check my fuckin' email!! It better be ok by tommorow, since I will probably be doing a big update in the junk area, if not then I shall scream!!!!

My Kain is so damn sexy in this pic that I drew of him with nothing but a mouse. A mouse you say!? Yes I lack a tablet, but I will get one soon, for I shall soon recieve money that I can start flickin' in a jar so I can actually buy me a tablet.

My sister keeps sayin' I'm grumpy, when I ain't. Sure I have a tendacy to be a bit jumpy and "I'll shover yer face through a fence if ya don't shut up", at times, but I'm wasn't grumpy. She kept buggin' me about it and didn't shut up! Ya so I was tired, I only had three hours sleep that day, what the hell do you expect!? Grumpy my ass!! I wasn't grumpy, maybe homocidel, but not grumpy.

Anyways, besides that me and my sister get along just peachy!! Except when she's tryin' to reformate the computer to windows XP, and here I am sayin' to myself, "ya know if I sat down I could figure this out, however when my sister sits down to do it, it will take her days" That and I was nervous to have her fiddlin' with it, and bugged her about it the whole time. She's ok with computers, but not great. I mean she's totaly grounded from the computer at home since she completely screwed it up!! It was so damaged we didn't even bother fixin' it and bought a new one.So she worries me, and if ya don't hear from me in awhile, that's why!!

I go to work tommorow and all of this week, and oh how great it was to have a staff meeting today on my only day off. So I go to Subway for this meeting. But what do I find? That the meeting has been changed to four instead of five. Oh how wonderful I say. So I ask Chance about it and he said it was just to prepare us for super soccer days. I'm like what the fuck is that? And apperently it's like the worst week in the entire year for Subway since every team conisiting of atleast 30 people or so, and there being atleast...well quiet a few teams since they all come from all over the place up here in the north...but anyways they all come to subway. God knows why though!?

I go to work today, even though I wasn't supposed to. I mean it was to be my day off, but since we just got a hella lot of stock at Reitmens, I said I'd come in and help out since Jen, the assistent manager called me up last night and almost begged me to come into work. So I said ya sure I'd come in. Extra money for me eh? Well I got there at 9ish. Which is the time she asked me to come in, but the mall doesn't open until ten, but guess what? I'm locked out, there is no way to get my ass inside this friggin' mall, until finally I find a way. So I walk down the hallway, but then bang, I hit one of those metal gates, that is spread across the hallway, not letting me in to the other side of the mall where Rietmens actually is. So there I am, tired and anger and fuckin' grumpy and totaly annoyed at all this because I was supposed to be there at nine, it was nine fifteen, I only had three hours sleep, and I though, if I can't get in there I'm goin' home and goin' back to sleep god damn it!!! But then I thought, calm down now, there has to be a way in.

So off I go to search the outskirst of the mall. In the meantime, Jen is callin' up here at Angies...err home, askin' if I was there, and Ang is like "uhhh....no, she left already" and so they are off to find me since they forgot to let me know which friggin' door to come in since everythin' else is fuckin' locked.

But fortunalty for me, some guy comes around and opens up the door near Reitmens, and I dash for it, and make it into the building. I turn the corner, and there is Jen with her jacket on ready to go hunt me down, and then she sees me and bursts out laughin'. By then I had a smile on my face, because it was pretty funny.

But anywho, there I am, and ready to face the many boxes of stock that we do have, and I'm in the back takin' all this shit, well some of the clothes were nice, but me thinks I like the older stock better...quiet frankly some of it was just plain ugly. But anyways back to what I was sayin'. Kim our manager trannie was in the back with me, and god knows what was up her ass? She was ok at first, just random bitchin' Ya sure the back room was a mess and was totaly unorganized, but how the fuckin' hell is it supposed to look like when ya got twenty one boxes of stock to unpack at move out onto the floor before noon. Of course it's going to be a complete mess!

So we work together, sure I was a bit tiffed at first because of the condition of the backroom, and because I was locked out, even though they didn't consider me as late, but eh, I got over it and moved on. This job pays me nine fifty per hour, so guess what? Lifes a bitch and then ya die, ya just don't complain and threaten to quiet everytime life gives a bad streak.

Anyways Kim, our so called mature assistent manager in training, was so fet up that she stormed out of the backroom, told everyone she was sick, and said that she had quit. So it was like, she was there for two weeks got tired of her job and stormed off.
Can you say obssesive little freak of a bitch or what?

I hated being in the back with her, sure I was mad to because well...I don't do mornings well, but I do put a great effort of being nice at that time of day into it. Can't make money whilst being a grump now can we? So anyways since Kim had left I stayed over time. I was originally not even to work today, like I said up top, and when I did agree to work it was only from 12 to 4, then 9 to four, but since missfasuty decided to leave on such short notice, I had to stay until closeing, which was actually ok. The mall closed at five, but I didn't get outta there until five thrity, but eh, mo' money!!

So, that was my exciting day!!! Agh I'm tired, but I guess with only havin' three hours sleep will make ya that way eh?

There is this huge friggin' debate goin' on at Nosgothic Realm about these so called screenshots of Soul Reaver Three. At first I was all excited like, and it said that it would be out November this year, but I dunno. Sure many first screenshots of video games look somewhat rough. These are defiently rough. So I wouldn't make any plans and havin' yer heart leap out of yer chest to only think a few mintues later that this could be false. But still the screenshots are kinda cool, Flase or not.

As to why the game would be called Legacy of Kain: Defience beats me though 0.o

ok if now it isn't the phone it's my bloody archives. I hate this server, I should just go and get me a new blog, but alas I do not have the time. Why can't this damn thing ever work? Why does it always have to give me some fuckin' excuss as to why it isnt workin' when it shoud be, because it just was?

And now that I have just edited it they are workin' now....great now I have to go take my anger elsewhere.....

Mood ~ Annoyed
Music ~ nada

I hate this household with it's damn fuckin' phone that never stays on it's craddle, it's always in use, and it never stops ringing, and it'a always someone callin' for Ang or Jessica, or somethin' like that. But is it ever for me? NO!! It is never for me, with the exceptions that my mom calls me, but I have to share that conversation with the entire household. Do my friends ever call me? NOOO!!! Suzanne did once, but the rest of them haven't. Why? Because it costs to much, well expensive my ass. And there it goes again ringing...it never is to be insight, nor is it ever to be found in time before the ringing stops, The fuckin' phone is left everywhere, the kids get a hold of it and ya can never find it again, and Angie is just as bad. That is the one thing that annoys me about this house, the constant and never ending ringing of the damn phone. I swear it starts up at six in the morning and doesn't stop until late at night.

I almost strangled my niece today, she turned on her stereo at full blast at seven in the morning. Seven is early for me, since today I don't have to work until four, thinking I had a chance to sleep in today, but noooooo....I get a earfull of annoyin' pop music in my head.

I guess I just got to get used to it, since I'm entirely not used to that at all. At home, if anyone were to blair music at seven in the morning they would of been stranggled to death, then chopped up and stored in a jar in the fridge for dinner. Chew ya up then spit ya out. Ya that sounds grosse. Welcome to my mind folks, its dark in there so be warned to bring a flashlight.

I go to work today from four to eight, and all I have to say about that is YESSSSS!!! I hate clsoing there, if ya want to know why, read my last post below. I don't have to close I'm so happy. They better not ask me to stay until closing, I'll freak if they do. I so don't want to deal with that today. Ya know though, speaking of jobs, I had two other people call me up yesterday askin' if I wanted to work for them, Canadian Tire and Wal-mart to be exact. I mean that is insane, plus I had Bootlegger askin' me a few days ago. I've never had so many job offers, and never had to turn any down until now. Which is good because I can always switch jobs if the subway one gets to annoyin'. I like Rietmens and I want to stay there. Plus fifty percent off clothes.

Mood ~ My feet hurt, is that a mood?
Music ~ Garbage - Queer

God almighty, I haven't written anything in here for a a bit over a week eh? That would mean that I'm eaither far to busy with work or just to damn plain lazy. You choose. But eh eaither way my feet still hurt!!

Really though I've been workin' my arse off, and I get my first paycheck from Rietmens and Subway this friday me thinks. I have to make sure though. I tell ya this closing shit at subways just sucks. I hate closing there. I mean closing isn't bad, it's just when yer closing at eleven at night. I miss mall hours. I miss not having to work in a place where drunks don't come in and demand coffee and then walk into walls as they leave after having to argue with them that we have no coffee left. It is at a bad location. I mean it's right down the street from the range, which is the ickest bar in town. So all the drunks try to come in and sit down in our "enviroment" after drinkin' way to much that the human body could possiably contain. But the money is good, so I guess I stay. Besides I'm gettin' to know and like the people there.

Actually while workin' Amber, my fifteen year old niece, came in and tryed to order seven twelve inch cold cut trios, and get me to pay for 'em, thinkin' I got free subs. I was like uhhh...no. I ain't payin', we don't get nothin' free. And then she just laughed, and stayed there for fifteen or so mintues just to bug me. I think it sucks though, we should get free subs.

But ya that's been basically it for me, borein' eh? Well atleast Easter was cool, got free chocolate, and ain't nothin' wrong with that eh? *eats as she types*

I have to got to get me some film, I took the dog for a walk the other day and went up this bitchin' hikin' trail and found myself walkin' over these huge flippin' rocks, well that's all there is here, but anyways ya could see all of frame lake, and it was meltin'. Now I've seen lakes freeze, but nothin' like this. The ice was so thick, ya could almost hear it melt, and it was all different shades of green and blue. I so totaly got to get me some film. But anyways the trail was cool, a nice hike. Except for the part when Shadoe caught me by surprise and dragged me into the knee deep snow. Well atleast it was dry snow so I didn't get wet, and thankfully I got hold of him again, before he could leap off into the waist deep snow..well almost waist deep snow, not entirely. Speakin' of snow, it's all melting here, and it's nice and warm now, well warm, prehaps not warm like at home, but not cold like ya need a jacket kinda thing....or maybe I'm just gettin' used to it.

Mood ~ Tired and is about to fall asleep
Music ~ bah!

Oh my god, I just got off work at eleven, oh what a wonderful time to get off, especially here in Yellowknife when there is a zillion drunks wandering the road. Anyways I was going to get a cab home, but my boss said, "Nah I'll drive ya back". Apperently she drives everyone home that is on the same shift as her, so that's cool, free ride home, no damn taxi money! But as I walk down the street from where she dropped me off, I can see the Aurora Borialias(sp?) Man is it beautiful.I mean I've seen it before as I channel surf through various commercials and shows and the occasional nature wildlife show or something on cultures. But seeing it in real life, right above you, is a different feelin'. I mean ya may not think of it as much, but to have it right above is you is pretty damn neat!!

Anyways ya, god tommorow I work 9 hours, 9 hours I tell you!! Five at Reitmens, and another four at subway. Oh well it's just one more hour from like havin' a full time job, with exceptions I may not get a break. Yazowers!! But it is all worthe the money...

Oh my god I was at work today and my dad was on the phone, he was callin' about me mother in the hospital today when she got her knee done, and everythin' went fine, just as I thought it would. I have to admit I wa worrin' about her today, but ya know ya got to keep concentrated on yer job and whatnot. But man was I relieved when dad called. So thats all good news eh!?

I miss home, I was goin' over ever single little detail of it last night as I lay in bed. One thing I do miss about homw is not havin' a cat like AJ that meos at you constatnly...agh as soon as I get home, there he is meowing at me for some unknown reason. I love him, but I just want to toss him in the bathroom and lock the door for awhile.

Mood ~ Meh
Music ~ Much Music

Ya know, now I'm actually likeing subway, the staff is nice, and now I know most of the stuff, like all the sandwhiches and whatnot, and tonight when I got home, A&W called me up and asked if I wanted to work for them full time for 10 bucks a hour, and she wanted me to come in tommorow full time...but I couldn't I work at Subway 3 to closing which is like 11 at night, and now I'm really likeing this job, like I said above. So I kinda turned it down, I said I was interested, but I had no time to be able to start at all. I didn't want to quiet subway unless I was sure I had the job at A&W. man now I feel bad, 10 bucks a hour is good, better then 9.25 at Subway, but Angie said go wherever ya feel is good for you. That and I just don't have the time, except at night when I get me arse home. I miss mall hours! But I feel bad anyways, I mean 10 bucks a hours, I'm almost tempted to call her back, but it's kinda late now. Oh well, atleast I know I can get a job anytime I want to up here. But my scheduel is full enough as it is now.

Anyways the staff I work with, well I feel old, they are all like 14 to 18 years of age, at subway anyways, but it's ok, they don't seem to mind, and nieather do I. Atleast I work with people the same age as me at Reitmens. People who are actually from all over Canada. It's kinda funny a bucnh of people came up here to work for almost the same kinda thing I did, I mean one of the girls I work with in Reitmens is from halifax, the other is from Wennipeg, and I don't know where our manager is from but me things she is from Newfoundland or soemthin'. But really I dunno!

I'm so tired, I want to sleep, but yet I'm so awake because there are so many things I want to do tonight, and something I gotta do like call my mother. She has her knee surgery tommorow, and she threatened to call me up at 6 in the morning tommorow. Agh I can't get any sleep around here. I'm quiet sure someone will say, "well if you didn't go to bed at 4 in the morning...." Well I like the night thank you very much!!. Besides I'm never tired at night.

I can't wait for payday the first thing I'm doin' is paying back Angie for the money I owe her since I'm borrowing some off her for lunch money and whatnot, then depending on how much I have I'm off to buy me a scanner. I miss my scanner. Plus I gotta pay her rent.
Anyways I'll then be able to scan in more of my lovely art, and update me site with all my random thingys! w00t!!!

Well it was my first day at Subway, and boy did I ever feel lost. I mean I have never worked in the food industry before. Nothin' even remotly close to it,a nd here I am, with no experience in this field goin'...wha.....? God I hate first days, I really do!! But atleast I got the job. But tommorow I got to do this crap again, the first day crap that is. Tommorow is my first day at Reitmens. Which I will probably feel more relaxed in since I'm so used to the reatil biz.

Anyways here's the funny part of the day, I go to the mall for my break, it is like a 5 second walk, but anyways I go in there and I get this guy who is askin' for directions and I go ummmm...I have no idea where that is, oh hi I'm new to town, my name is greg, what is yours? So I say in my most shyest lowest voice not really wanting him to hear me, I say Elsie, why I said my name I don't know, someone hit me with a stick please! Then we shock hands....Anyways this guy was totaly hittin' on me, and of course I wasn't interested. I mean this guy was askin' if he can come pick me up after I close and I'm like...uhhh....no. So I go, well I got to get back to wrok, and he's beggin' me to stay, and I'm like noo I can't, I'll be late. Which actually I just got on my break but this guy was pissin' me off, so I leave as he's callin' me to wait, but do I hesitate to even look back? Damn right I don't. I'm so shy, shy enough to say dumb things, that and my accursed mouth is to polite. But anyways I handled it well, never saw him again today. Now that I look back at it, it is kinda funny!! Ya know I hate bein' hit on, I get it all the time and I ususally handle it better...I guess I was just out of my "don't piss me off with hittin' on me" kinda mood, but me thinks I should get that kinda dditude back.

And ya all know what else is cool? Wel ya know that Deviant account I got, well I can sell my art over that, ya that's what ya heard, sell my art!! Got to get me some copies of my work and sell it. I mean I got a few fans, I'm quiet sure a few people on NR would buy some of my stuff, and of course a lot of people on my own board. I know Lilith and Lichie would buy somethin'. But I still have to get eveythin' oraganized..ya ya ya I know I've been sayin' it for awhile, but now I think COOL!! So I may just yet do it.

Agh I'm so tired, to tired to look for spellin' errors and to damn right lazy, so if ya see any, don't bother educating me in the fine art of english spellin' ok?

OH MY FRICKIN' GOD, I just got me two jobs, I start Subway tommorow like I said at 10, and I start Reitmens on Sunday at One...wowza!! well just thought I let you know that. Oh plus I got me a Deviant account, it should be up top..but eh if it hasen't gotten there yet, here it is for you. It's only got one new thing on it though, just my latest piece, but that's about it. Will put more up eventually.

Mood ~ Very Happy
Music ~ Stone Sour - Bother

With reading my last post, I can say I don't feel that way anymore, since I just got me a job at subway....ya ya ya I know, "Subway, eat fresh" and no I won't be seeing Jarod anytime soon. I just kinda walked in, sat down, said hi, and BANG! I got me a job. I start tommorow at 10 and when I get there I get to pick out a shirt and a hat to wear. Oh yay!!!! that was sarcasim if ya didn't know. It's a job, so I guess I won't complain. Startin' wage is 9.25 a hour, not bad eh. Plus if I do well I will get a raise up to 10 somethin'. Sounds good to me. But now I'm going to have to tell people if the call me up for another job that I just cant take it. I got me a full/part time position at Subway. Full/part time is when ya work six hour days some times, and work 8 hour days at other times. Oh well, money is money. Plus if I get a job at the co-op I can always work two jobs.

The co-op money would be good, considerin' they pay ya 14 bucks to stock shelves. I think I mentioned that eailer. Anyways Sheldon, my sisters great and wonderful boyfriend said he'd talk to someone there. Although it's ok, I don't mind gettin' $9.25 a hour. Back home, ya have to work forever and a day to get a raise like that, and here it is startin' wage.

I hope Angie doesn't read this, about the comment I made about Sheldon.....Well to bad, sis, you have a great guy, and I like him, and well everyone likes him. I'm so happy she met this guy. She deserves this ya know. If only ya could see how happy she is. She hasn't been this happy in a long while and I'm just happy for her.

So to bad if she was readin' this =P She keeps sayin' I'm teasin' her, well I am a bit, but only becasue I'm gald to see her this way.

Anyways god I can't wait for my first paycheck. First thing I'm gonna do is hand Ang a nice crispy hundred dollar bill. That's for my food supply while I'm here....I mean a hundred bucks a paycheck is dirt cheap, but my dear sister understands my tryin' to get to art school. Then Most of it will go into a savings account, then some for me for entertainment, and such, plus I have to buy me a scanner. I'm totaly going mad without my old one. Well actually it wasn't mind. But I was the only one that knew how to use it. God I can't wait to have money and a job again, especially the money. The job is ok, but ya gotta have one of those to get the cursed green stuff. Well multi-colored over in Canada.

Mood ~ Aggrivated
Music ~ White Strips

I seem to get the impresstion that I have been here for more then two weeks, and still I have yet to get a job. But then I look at the fact that I've only been here for eleven days, and I have to be a bit more patient. Well patience my ass, I feel bad about havin' no money, and dependin' on Ang to buy me pop. Ya sure I used to grovel for money off of my mother, but she's my mom, I'm here daughter, I'm supposed to be a real bug and ask for toonies and the such when I'm broke.

But anywho, I do have that Interview tommorow afternoon. Three O'clock, w00t! I hope I get this job. I hate interviews, I'm so incrediably shy, and I try so hard, but sometimes it just shows I'm shy. Although once I get the job, I'm usually just dandy, and quiet chatty to. With the costumers and the staff. I wish I can just go up to them and say, "I'm shy, I'm probably going to screw up this interview because of the fact that I am shy, but really I would be a great addition to your staff."

Ya know we used to have 6 stairs outside in our backyard, but now it appears we only have four. It won't stop snowin'. It just won't let up, and absalutly refuses to not snow so I have to take a smelly old cab to my interview downtown. Although I could walk, it is only five mintues away 0.o

I keep runnin' around this town and seein' obstract things such as icicles that hang from the top part of a balcony, and end at the bottum of the balcony below it. Ya know yer typical apartment buildin' kinda thing. I just so want to plunk a black and white roll of film into my camera and start clickin' at every obscure thing I see. I mean the odd things here and just so common. Yellowknife is such a strange place, and I want to capture it. I guess I just have to look at this little trip as some sort of cultural experence.

Mood ~ Hype
Music ~ Nirvana - Lake of Fire

Where do bad folk go when they die, they don't go to heaven where the angels fly, they go to a lake of fire and fry, won't see them again until the fourth of July

Ok I'll stop singin'....

But don't ya just hate it when yer totaly bored, but absalutly hyper for some unknown reason, and all ya want to do is go out and do somethin', anything, it doesn't matter what, but ya can't. Ya, that's me right now. So instead I take my boredom and hyperness to my blog, and happly and feircely type away. I so want to do somethin', but alas I don't know anyone here, well no one with exceptions to family members, but unfortuanly no one my age. Well there is this one guy named Brendon of all names, and he's my age, and every single friggin' person in this family wants to set me up with him. Hey he's from Vancouver, so actually I wouln't mind meeting him, but as a friend, not as a boyfriend. Yeesh it seems everyone here wants me to settle down with someone they know or somethin'. I want a friend right now, not a boyfriend. Although it's not that bad, I mean I'm yer typical loner, always have been, always will be.

Oh and about the name Brendon, it's just that there is this guy at home named Brendon who has had a overally large crush on me since tenth grade...that was about six years ago.

Did I mention I finally got my PS2 hooked up. Finally I say, it's all plugged up in my room, and the tv I have in there was older, and so did not have the nessacary components, and so I went off and bought me a RF adaptor at Wal-mart. A Wal-mart that sells a very small selection of Video games, but thankfully when certain games like SR3 come about I can order them up. I tell ya if I couldn't get me games, I'd be gone and outta here right now.

Anyways on another note, the house, after everyone not originally of this household left, is damn quiet. I mean we had four extra people livin' with us. I mean from the moment I got my ass up here, I've been plagued with the chatter of three kids, and the constant busyness of three to four other adults in the house, and at last....they are gone, the house has gone back to the norm. Until everyone comes by to visit again. I'm so friggin' glad I got me own room here, or else I would be going mad. This house never stops hoppin', and at times it drives me insane. I like my peace and quiet, and my space. Well peace and quiet and rest to me is with my music cranked, and my sketch book out. But anyways, it's quiet for once.

I want to go to Winks...but it's to late and frankly to dangerous out here, and probably to cold. But man am I havin' a craving for chocolate, or some BBQ chips would be nice to.

Come, come into my dark alley, and let me feel you tender neck with my lips...

Mood ~ Happy
Music ~ Much Music blairin' in the background

Hey hey, me thinks I have a job!! Well atleast I got a Interview on Wednsday at one, at Reitmens,down at the mall. A tiny mall, real tiny, really small, and only has a couple nice places in it. It's kinda odd to walk by a place that sells nothin' but Inuit Parkas, the native art I'm used to. it's old hat. Gastown, a street down in Vancouver sells nothin' but native art. anyways ya...I walked in and gave the girl my resume and application form, and she asked me immedietly if I wanted a interview, and so I got one. So now I'm nervous, but hell I always get nervous before a Interview. But what pains me is that I have to walk back there again tommorow to give out more resumes, and on Wedensday for the dang interview. But hey if I get the job I won't be complainin'. I want the money!!

Anyways downtown Yellowknife is interesting, there is more bars then there is people, it kinda reminds of that one town in Blood Omen, a town that I cannot remember the name of at the moment, but anyways there is one frickin' town in that game that is all bars, and that is Yellowknife. I wonder if I'll see Kain wondering around slurpin' up people whilst they sleep, LOL ok there I go again with my LOK conparisens.(sp?)

But really it is true, everyone here drinks, even the kids(14-16ish) do, and that is sad, real sad. Not that they don't in Vancouver, but I mean here it's a different kind of drinkin', people get drunk here, callapse, and wake up god knows where and drink again. But I'm stayin' away from those people and those kinda areas, so don't worry about me. I'm ok. Besides I got me sister here with me.

Anyways Yellowknife is a odd funky town, drove down ragged ass road yesterday, 'twas fun. Already got me a street sign of it. I tell ya one thing though, people are well...creative here, once I get me some pictures and a scanner and I'll show ya what Ragged ass road is like. This whole place is like one big family, the comunnity comes together and does stuff, like dog sled racing, and ice fishin', and snowmobileing, which I want to try. I think ice fishing would get to boring for me. That and to cold, me ears were already freezing by the time I got to the mall today, and it ain't that long of a walk. And damn is it windy here, it's already cold outside, but no, it has to be windy on top of that to. I mean I wore my big coat today and gloves and big wooly socks, and I wans't cold, but my ears sure as hell were, and I couldn't find that thingy I got for my ears to keep them warm eaither, I hope I didn't leave it in Vancouver, actually I don't think I did, I remember seeing it here.

Aghh I hate this cold, but it well worthe the money. Atleast Angie has offered to drive me to work if it gets really cold. But I tell ya the first thing I'm buyin when I get my first paycheck is some sunglasses. The entire ground since it is all snow shines like the dickens, and glares right into my eyes, so I can't friggin' see, but eh I made it there eventually.

This is bloody well amusing, god I haven't seen my etch-a-sketch in so bloody long. Me thinks I sold it at a garage sale. Man the things ya get rid of when yer a little older then 10 or 11, thinkin' you'll never want to play with that again. I would love to have one now!! Well I wonder if Wal-mart would have them? *ponders*

And, yes I'm a LOK fan!! Proud of it to, anyways found this in the taveren on NR, found it kinda amusing. Look Familiar? I tell ya it's kinda odd everytime I find Simon Templeman on some kind of cover or listing for a play and whatnot. Even more odd was that time I found a audio thing of him doin' a radio commercial for some hotel. I could just see SR era Kain dressed up in a three piece suit standin' in from of some kind of screen pointing out the the facilities of the hotel, and all the so called wonderful things ya could do there.

Anyways I'm off tommorow morning to get me a damn job, so I guess I should get my ass to bed, even though I ain't the slightest bit tired. Oh well...I'll guess I'llgo stare at the ceilin'.

Yet another Quiz, got it from me best bud, and I'm real bored at the moment, and all I'm doing is some stuff in Photoshop, and...well...ya...anyways...

1. Name on Birth Certificate: Elsie Jean McNish

2.Location: In a Igloo, well Yellowknife is close enough eh?

3.Colour of eyes: Blueish-silver

4.Nicknames: On the boards I'm called Bloodfang, but usually everyone calls me Fangy

--------------HAVE YOU EVER---------

5.Been so drunk you blacked out?: My mother could be readin' this, ya think I'm going to say anything about that!?

6.Put a body part on fire for amusement?: 0.o no, I ain't that odd

7.Been in a car accident?: nope

8.Been hurt emotionally?: yep, and probably go though it again a few hundred more times.

9.Had an imaginary friend?: I don't think so... 0.o

10.Wanted to hook up with a friend?: well there was this one time...

11.Cried during a Movie?: ....it takes a lot for me to cry in a movie, but I have done it a few times, damn emotional movies!!

12.Had a crush on a teacher?: nope

13.Had a New Kids on the Block tape?: .....Yes, when I was like 8 or so...what? I was a kid back then, can't blame me for getting wrapped up in all the hype and media when I was 8 now can ya?

14.Been on stage?: yeppers...eww I said yeppers

15.Been Sarcastic?: Hell ya!!


-----------------FAVOURITES-----------------

16.Shampoo: something that comes in a nice shiney bottle...seriously I dunno, I guess anything that cleans my hair is good enough.

17.Colour: RED!!!...I like black to.

18.Clothes: anything in fashion.

19.Mood: creative, can that be a mood?

20.Day/Night: Ahhh, oh how I love the gentle warmth of the night sky....in other words, Night!!

21.Summer/Winter: Winter, even though I hate the cold.

22.Lace or satin: Satin, perferably red *wink wink*

23.Food: Japanese!!

24.Movie: hrmmm I have to many, but one that comes to mind right now is Interview with the Vampire.

25.Favorite Ice Cream: CHOCOLATE!!!!

26.Favorite Subject(s): Art ^__^

27.Favorite Drink: Diet Pepsi

28.Alcoholic: Blue Lagoon


--------------RIGHT NOW----------------

29.Wearing: My black pants, and a light blue turtle neck, and my big grey wool duster, that I got from Old Navy( haven't changed outta work close yet)

30.Eating: A Carrot with some ranch dressing =P

31.Drinking: Diet Pepsi

32.Thinking: How long is it going to take me to finish this dumb quiz?

------------THE LAST 24 HRS--------------

33.Cried: nope

34.Worn a skirt: nope

35.Done laundry: yep

36.Drove a car: no *doesn't own a car here, nor a licence to drive one*

---------------Do you Believe In---------------

37.Yourself: I have faith in myself, I guess I'm to determind at what I want to do, but like everyone else I don't at times.

38.Friends: Most of the time.

39.Tooth Fairy: Ya she's that evil lady in my closet...

40.Santa Claus: nope

41.Angels: sure, why not?

42.Ghosts: Where? where is a ghost? *hides under table*....ya I do believe in them.

------------FRIENDS AND LIFE--------------

43.Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no, but with the way the entire friggin' family wants to set me up...I may have one...0.o

44.Who's the loudest friend you have?: 0.o I dunno, prehaps...hrmm eaither Shwub or Suzanne...Sharon would fit that bill to...

45.Who do you go to for advice? Family mostly, they have the most experience.

46.Who do you think about most when you're not online?: me best bud, Suzanne...I miss ya girl!!

47.Who do you cry with?: I cry alone, don't like to see people in a more weakened state...I'm just one of those gals who hold it all in.

48.The worst feeling?: emotional pain

If I ever get me a credit card, this is it's first purpose in it's excisitence.

Mood ~ still a bit tired
Music ~ Nothin' at the moment

Ahhh I'm finally here, but damn did I have some problems gettin' here. I tell ya now I hate flying, well the fucking service around flying anyways. In Vancouver they nicked the back of my bording pass when they were supposed to take the back of Jessica's(my niece), and so when I got to the Edmonton airport, I couldn't get on the plane. Thank god I went up to them eailer to ask whether or not that we were at the right gate or not since we never did get a gate for our departure in Edmonton at the Vancouver airport.
But anyways we had to sit in the Edmonton airport for awhile and hope and prey that they let me on the plane, and thankfully they did. I had to phone Ang and ask her for her credit card number so we could buy another ticket, we put 3 bucks into the phone, and had one mintute to tell Angie what was going on, but after our 60 seconds ran out the lady came over to us and said she had talked to her supoier and said I could get my arse on the plane, and that they probably lost my slip somewhere in the Vancouver airport. Boy was I ever thankfull!!

Anyways we finally get here and we hit so hard turbulence in our desent, and we were see-sawing a bit, and hey it was fun even though Jessica was a bit scared...and clinging to me a bit. But anyways when we finally did land it was only minus eight outside and it was snowing, and already had a bit of snow on the ground. So that was kinda cool. Anyways I have to sit on the computer tommorow and work on a resume, since I was stupid enough to leave a copy of mine at home, and the computer at home needs to be taken in and earased since there has been so much shit wrong with it. so I loose my resume. Now I have to start from scratch *sighs* But anyways, that is what I be doing tommorow. Anyways me sister is going out for awhile, then in about a hour she's comin' back and she is going to give me a tour o the town.

Although it is a small place, it's kinda cool, I mean right now I look out the back window and we have all those little small trees, and a river in the back, and with all the snow on it, it's actually kinda pretty.

Mood ~ Sad
Music ~ The Radio

This is my last post in me blog before I leave, well I actually leave on the 29th, but I got me tons 'o stuff to do in that small amount of time. So when I'm gone please refrain from freaking out over the fact that I haven't posted in a few days. I promise I'll post here as soon as I get me arse up to the frozen wasteland, ok? And please don't go and send me tons of email just cause yer concerned, concerned my foot, I'll shuve it up yers if I find ten thousand emails when I get up there that are all about, "where the hell am I?"
I'm moving, it takes time and effort, so anyways I'm off to party with me friends...one last party before I go...How depressing eh?

Mood ~ Kinda tired
Music ~ Eminem - Sing for the moment

*looks over last post*

My god what was I on? I think I was a bit to into the Hyperness of the moment, with Suzanne over and all. It's really getting to me now, Angie is leaving tommorow, meaning I only got 7 days left in the city life, then it's off to country bumpkin, freezing my ass off, land of the north I go. I'm sure as hell going to miss Suzanne, it almost broke my heart when she left at like midnight. Ha the only thing we didn't do is get drunk and puke up all over me mothers bathroom. But eh, we had a good time nontheless. God I'm going to miss her. I think out of all my firends she's the only one that catches the same wavelength as me ya know. Hence why she's my best bud.

Anyways Daredevil kicked my ass around the theatre. What can I say but it was a awesome movie. But even though it was such a great movie I have to say it ain't as good as Spider-man. But that's just me.....I still like the phrase, "those eyes, those yellow eyes". Ya I know I'm such a fangirl geek. Which is a thing I'm going to miss, I can't geek out and buy action figures up there unless I want to buy cheap shit in Walmart, and I'm to finicky for that. Besides, wal-mart ain't got good enough toys down here anyways. I guess I shall just have to get meself a credit card. Oh glorious plastic!!

Hey ya know what I've noticed, some of my older art sucks, like really sucks, I don't know what kinda frame of mind I was in when I drew pics like this. I mean what the fuck is up with Sydneys neck. I have no idea what was going on in my head when I drew this piece of shit. But it's strange, I haven't drawn necks like that since I first started to really draw, and then I just kinda evolved past that, and now in a couple of drawings(older, but not as old as some of my really old derangged shit) I got peoples necks and heads all being like some sort of beanpole...head on a stick, hehe. But I dunno. I hate 'em!! *wants to rid her site of these blasphimis things* I've already gotten rid of a few pieces of art of me site, but I guess the Sydeny one I just didn't catch onto until now. I still can't believe how bad that picture is and I just did it in September or so.
Ahh well, I guess the few kick ass fanarts I got comin' will make up for those crappy things. But me thinks I'll get rid of it anyways.

Mood ~ Hyper!!!
Music ~ Nada

My friend is driving me insane, I tell ya, INSANE!!! She keeps refering to all sorts of things as expensive crap...why is she saying this, I don't know. But we're off to see Daredevil soonish... but anyways here is our conversation for your amusement. Don't mind the insanity and compulsive swearing, and the odd lok humor.

Lilith: dance Little wizard DANCE!!

Me: O_o Ummm... ok, oh look a cute of picture of kain, I want to hug it.

Lilith: Of course you want to hug it, it's Kain!!

Me: And I want to hug Janos to, he's cute in that picture

Lilith: No raziel *pouts*

Me: haha, no Raziel for you

lilith: MMmmmmm Fine I'll just go watch Daredevil, Mmmm Ben Athleck...

*And we're off to see Daredevil*

Mood ~ Happy
Music ~ Matthew Good

w00t, I got me my computer back, poor thing had to go in for a tune up. Since it was or last day for the warremty we thought we better go in and get our burner fixed. Good idea eh? Anyways, So finally our Burner is fixed. Damn thing has been broken since sometime in November. I haven't been able to burn a Cd since, and I got me all these MP3 files downloaded. So tommorow what am I doing you may ask? Burning CD's!! Be a good time to do so since Ang and the kids ain't around at the moment. They be off doing visiting tommorow and for the rest of tonight, kids got a sleep over and so does Ang at her mothers, hehe. I am sister and niece free.

Packing is diffuicult, since I only have three suitcases to carry everything up there including my down blanket and whatnot. Plus all my junk and clothing. Although, Angie is coming down in April so she can bring more stuff up for me.

It's been nice though, Ang and me have had some time together to do "sisteraly" stuff like shopping, and going to see movies. We saw Tears of the Sun the other day. What a bitchin' movie. yes it is a war movie, and some don't like war movies, but this one was good. Kinda sad at times to, but some great action(of course) in it as well. I say it is a must see. Speaking of movies, Suzanne(a.k.a Lilith) are off to see Daredevil on thursday. At first I wasn't to hype about the movie, thought marvel was going a bit to crazy with the movie camera, and kinda stole it, ran off with it from the studios and started filming there own shit. But anyways, that's not the way. Actually the more I see of it, the more I like it. I've never been to much of a Daredevil fan, love Marvel, but I guess that one title of theirs didn't strike me very much. I think the only reason why I used to pick one up every now and then because it had Spider-man in it, and of course Elektra. But anywho, the movie looks good. Now all I got to do is swindle 20 bucks outta me mother and I'll be fine and dandy.

Mood ~ Pissed
Music - Evanessence

Agh I hate my blog I just wrote a bunch of shit in here, and it goes and tells me "error" and it doesn't publish it!!! Aghhhhhh!!!
All I wanted to write about was absalutly nothing, in the sence that nothing has happened to me for the past six days with exceptions to getting ready for the move, and it goes and screws it all up. Damn mucked up server!!

Agh..I also wanted to show y'all this, this is Binah, who is a newer character in the Ravenous series, she is a Delshi(cool name for a race of people eh?) who are a race of people that are sworn to protect the Oracle Dalias, and have done so for thousands of years. They are very hi-tech and have advance throughout the ages. But other then their technology they keep other secrets hidden amongst them. They do not interfere with the ongoings of the world outside of their own. They just basically do there job, which as I have said before is protecting the Oracle. They are few in number, but have a great society non the less. Oh I ave a question, do ya thing Binah is to light of a character for this series? I mean the Oracle is blue and bright, so I dunno, I like her.

Mood ~ meh
Music ~ nothin' at the moment

What do you get when ya got a topic such as sex and a another topic such as art and it's tools such as smudge sticks...well take smudge sticks and place that along with sexual "equipment", and if ya get the sick joke, well congrats to you. I tell ya the things we talk about on the phone is literally insane. My phone is possed by some dark morbid demon, it most be, because of all the conversations we get into have been just wild lately, which I don't mind, wild is good. And it ain't just with one person, oh no. Everyone I've been talking to, including my sister, have been having wild conversations over the phone with me.

Anyways speaking of wild, anyone seen the ring yet? I have, scared me a bit, and I really didn't like my pitch black hallway afterwards when I had to go pee. But ah faced the darkness anyways...drank to much pop and really had to go.
My mom saw it the next day, and it really freaked her out, I mean I got a bit jumpy at it, but my mother is scared of every damn freaky movie out there, I don't know why she wanted to watch it. Anywho, after she watched the movie she went off to the washroom, and since I do have long black hair almost like Samaras, I pulled it down over my face and stood at the door of the bathroom waitin' for her to come out, and when she did, she freaked for a second then relized it was me, and said...

Mom: Elsie, don't do that!!

Me: Oh I got you so good *laughs*

Mom: You shouldn't do that to your poor mother *laughs*

Well alteast I didn't do to her what Carol(sister in law) did to Angie...after the movie everyone went to Carols place, except Angie, she went home. Anways Carol called her up and said very softly into the phone, "seven days". Of course Angie almost flipped, and then relized it was Carol. See I could of been meaner and done that.

Mood ~ lazy
Music ~ 50 cent - In da club

I have like totaly new ideas for Ravenous, well things to add to it anyways. I'm kinda excited, these little things add a extra umph to the story. It's going to be great, although these things will have to have a whole bunch of write ups and concept sketches of 'em, so do expect a update soonish on the junk page...unless I get lazy of course and decide not to upload anythin', but eh, it'll all get there eventually. I only have three pages up of Ravenous, I want to post the script for it, but I thought that might as well just ruin the whole thing. So I ain't going to do that. Besides I've added new things to the script like I've said before. Now it's going to be great, and I've already started on some of the conceopt are for some of the other species of Athgot, hehe.

Speaking of art, I got this new funky picture based on LOK that I'm workin' on. Everyone on Nosgothic Realm that can draw has put their hand to creating their own "ancient vampire pillar gaurdian", but no one as of yet has drawed the first balance gaurdian, well atleast no that I know of, so I'm going to do that, but I can't wait to color her, she's blue right, so I thought eh, lets make her look like some sort of Asian deitie, like Shiva. He's got blue skin and wore all those bright greens, reds and oranges. So I think I'm going to do that. Kinda give the ancients of the LOK series a bit of a new look. Since everyone out there that has drawn one just assumes they all wore the same colors as Janos in SR2.

And speaking of NR, it's kinda gotten a bit better since it's last downfall, and everybody there is friggin' excited about the video game mags sayin' something about SR3 comin' out real soon, not only are they excited about the game, but at last there will be a SR3 spoiler forum. I think everyone there still wants to post there but is gettin' kinda tiresome 'cause of the same old questions, and I can agree with that. It's a great board, great people, just needs that new game to come out to bring it back to it's former glory.

Ya know, I leave in about three weeks....ya I know this is off topic, but I was kinda lookin' at the calender we got up here, and I noticed that I leave in about three weeks. Three weeks I tell ya and I'll be up in the frozen wasteland...god who'd a thunk eh?

Well I have good news for my mother, she's off to the doctors on the 25th of March and their going to scheduele her in for her knee operation in April. Big whoop for her since she lives with arthritis daily, and as soon as she gets this operation she'll be pain free basically. Well not literally, she can't run with her new knee in place, and she'll be in even more pain three monthes after the operation. But it will be nice for her to walk and walk like she used to without stopping every 20 mintues for a rest.

The only thing she is complaing about is the fact that my parent are going to be kinda broke for awhile afterwards, but she does get money from the governemt, so it shouldn't be to bad. Besides it just going to be the two of them.

Did anyone watch Buffy last week? This weeks was a rerun, and I didn't see last weeks. I've been so Buffy deprived lately. It's the only good thing on, and I somehow miss the only show that I watch on TV. When I'm up in Yellowknife I will finally be able to tape Buffy since angie has a working VCR, unlike us. We just stick to DVD's and the such, and our VCR that we do have is somewhat broken, and doesn't tape shows, and if it does it only tapes up to channel 13. It's old. But alteast now my family is getting somewhat more tech.

And once again I leave you with a small post, since I really don't have nothing else to say I won't trouble you with my ramblings.

Mood ~ Sore
Music ~ Missy Elliot

Why must everyone talk to me on MSN when I want to leave, and when they've had all friggin' day to say hi. I guess I deserve it since all I've been doing is complaing my ass off about no one talking to me on MSN.

I still ain't got nothing to really write about in me blog, I'm just bored, ain't got nothin' else to do but sit around, clean up, and play video games, and surf the net all day. What a life eh? Well not so, because I got me dad on me back complain' as to why I don't have a job. I tell ya why, Because I'm leaving in four weeks, that's why!! Then I'll be workin' my ass of that's for sure. Yep my freezin' workin' ass.

Anyways we got this funcky system on our computer now that lets us dial up my sis in Yellowknife and talk to her just like we would on a phone, but the cool thing is that we can now see her to. But we got crappy dial up, so in order to get it to be all clear like, we gotta get cable. Then Ang will be clear.

Anywho...I'm bored, and so I most go and find something to rid me of this boredom. And I find that typing in here ain't loosing it, so I'm off to do something...well as soon as I loose everyone on MSN that is.

Mood ~ Ok I guess
Music ~ Nothing at the moment

Hrmmmm...*pokes blog*

You may have been wondering as to why I haven't written anything at all in me blog for about four days, the fact is that I really haven't had anything happen to me or found anything of interest to write about. Ya sure you may think I ain't doin' nothing since I don't got me a job and all I'm doing is sittin' on me ass...well it's not true. Moving is a effort people, I'm still trying to get everything I need, and make sure it all fits in the suitcases I do have. Well I haven't started packing yet, But I'll have to start in about two or so weeks.

Anywho...yep, that has been it for the last four days, that and I redesigned my forum, now it looks all nice, and dark, and gothic, well kinda much more of a romantic gothic. It reminds me of something or a design that would go with something about Anne Rices: Vampire Chronicles. Or maybe it's just me that sees that.

Anywho, this post is gettin' lame(eww...I said lame), so I shall leave you so I can go slurp on my hot Chocolate with marshmellows.

No word of a lie, this is the village of Elsie. It's really odd when ya find towns with the same name as yourself, and just because I was so intreged I signed their guestbook. I wonder if they have ever had anyone by the name of Elsie sign it before?

Looky...

While UPN would no doubt prefer a new series as early as this fall, "I think ideally the best thing to do would be to wait and not rush anything," Whedon said. "There are paradigms that I've posited that could start next year ... (but) whatever came next, it would have to have at its center an idea as worthy as ('Buffy' and spinoff 'Angel') were. And somebody who's pretty."

I can't believe that this is it, Buffy is ending after a seven year run on the small screen. Apperently the show is going to go out with a bang. Faith and Angel are going to come back, and people were hopeful of faith taking over the show, but now it seems doubtful, because she has just signed on for another show that will be airing soon. I hope they do the thing with Dawn, after all she is the key.
I don't know what I'm going to do? Buffy is the only thing I watch. Serisouly I only spen a hour a week watching TV, and it's always Buffy, everything else is just crap, with all those reality shows on nowadays. *sighs* I guess it's back to waiting patiently for another good show to pop up.

Mood ~ Happy
Music ~ Matthew Good Band

Well things are looking up around here, ever since Amber left, w00t!! is al I have to say. In a way I'm glad she is moving out, and leaving her room to me when I move. I don't know if I could take anymore of her and her snotty additude. God that kid thinks she is so grown up, but let me tell you every time to goes into a friggin' frenzy about some stupid little thing, she just proves us all right on how immature she really is.

Well anyways I redid my comment system again...I hope it works. When I get some cash I'm switchin' to blogger pro, 'cause it's got a built in comment system, and so I won't have to deal with this crap all the time. *kicks blog* That and I may get gold for the board. Or atleast ezsupporter for myself...it seems cheaper that way, but it would be nice to get gold, I mean if ya get gold ya get ezsupporter right along with it.

Well I should leave you all so I can publish this thing and see if my comment system will work *sighs*

I'm bored so here is yet another quiz...boredom is so boreing, I'm so bored..the boredness is driving me to more boredom...ok I'll stop now. First question...

1. What is your name?
Elsie, but most net people call me Fangy, cause of my obsesstion with vampires and other dark morbid things.

2. What color of pants are you wearing right now?
Dark blue jeans

3. What are you listening to right now?
Tatu - All the things she said...dumb song I know, but it does got a good beat *dances*

4. last 4 digits of your phone number?
Why should I give you my number...ummm..ok...8573

5. What was the last thing you ate?
Breton crackers...hrmm the person I got this from said the same thing.

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Blood red

7. Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon?
Ummmm.....When I do find a boyfriend and when I do make him fall for me with all my charms, and when he does get down on one knee, I would LOVE to go to Rome.

8. How is the weather right now?
Sunny, but kinda cool outside...

9. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Probably my sister...ain't I sweet...

10. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Ummm....hrmmm...well I could say the bulge, but nah seriously I really admire a good pair of hands, and no it's not because of that so called lengivity(how the friggin' hell do ya spell that) thing. I just like hands.

11. Do you like the person that sent you this?
I got it from me sister...I guess she's ok...* prepares to be pummled by bricks* ok ok I love her alot.

12. How are you today?
Kinda worried, yet very happy, and excited...I'm moving to the northeren land of eternal cold in about 31 days O_o

13. Your favorite drink?
Diet Pepsi

14. Your favorite alcoholic drink?
kalua *smacks lips* what? 'Tis good stuff...even better when ya mix it up with stuff.

15. How do you eat an Oreo cookie?
that yummy filling first of course

16. Favorite sport?
Football...as in soccer...not as in american football...I grew up in a english family so sue me.

17. What's the next cd that you are going to get?
the new Matthew Good Band =)

18. Hair Color?
A really really dark brown, it almost looks back at times.

19. Eye Color?
Silvery Blue

20. Do you wear contacts?
Nope, no glasses eaither.

21. Siblings?
Yes... one oddball of a sister named Angie...*prepares to get pummled by more bricks when she reads this*

22. Favorite month?
October, not only is it the month of my birthday, but it also has the best holiday in it...can we say halloween? And no, I do not go around door to door askin' for candy...I just buy all the halloween candy real cheap the next day.

23. Favorite food?
At the moment...Gyoza, or also known as Potstickers.

24. Last movie you watched?
My big fat greek wedding.

25. Favorite day of the year?
that's a hard one buddy...it's eaither Halloween of Christmas day...I can't really decide =P

26. Are you to shy to ask someone out?
I'm shy to begin with, what do you think?

27. Do you like scary or happy movies better?
Scary...I'm also like the scary ones that have a lot of gore in 'em, I like to see people get chopped in half...I have a derangged mind I know.

28. Summer or Winter?
Winter...although that may change once I move.

29. Hugs or Kisses?
Kisses? from who...from a boyfriend..then it's french all the way baby. But kisses on the cheek from other loved ones such as family are sweet to...I guess it really depends who the person is.

30. Relationships or one night stands?
Relationships of course =P

31. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Chocolate? Where?

32. Have you ever been in love?
Yep..and I tell ya love hurts.

33. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Unfortunalty yes =(

34. Are you Romantic?
yep

35. What is your shoe size?
Umm..I'm eaither a 7.5 or a 8

36. What is the last gift you received?
Africa spa body rub, expensive crap, but ohh it's nice stuff.

37. What is your favorite #?
My fav number is 13...now is that bad luck or good?

ok skip what I said below, the friggin' thing actually worked for once...it tooks it's time though!!

As for the comment system, it won't even let me get into my control center, 'cause the the dorks at backblog couldn't keep their friggin' system up and runnin' again, so unfortunaltly for me I won't be able to read all yer wonderful comments.

That's it!!! I'm pissed off at this stupid thing, blooger should be sued for all of this crap, I mean I had three archieves going for me, and then all of a sudden, BANG they dissappear. I mean I do what I usually do when they kinda go astray, ya set it to no archive, then save and publish that, then ya go back into yer archive settings select monthly then republish it all, but what does it do for me, it looses it all litterally, so now all I got is one loosely archive.

And the other thing that is pissing me off is that backblog, my comment system, is down....*sighs* Agh, sometimes I just want to throw the whole flippin' thing away, but what can I say, I love my blog...it's fun to poke at when yer bored and ain't got nothin' better to do then type away on the keyboard. I just wish the friggin' thing would work.

Why must all my blogs go all wierd on me? Bare with me as a try tog et it all back together.

I found this really cool site, it's called meet up, and it's a international organization online thingy that is all about getting people together, well ok that sounds dumb, but I mean people like me, who are WITCHES!! Did I scare you? Yes I am a witch...maybe I forgot to say that in my profile...ahh well now ya know. I'm a witch a damn proud of it!!

But anywho...what this thing does is basically gets people in the same area who are witchs, vampires, goth kids or anything else alone those lines, to met up with fellow witches in the same area in which you live. So it's kinda like one big witch party, or if your into the vampire thing, it's one big vampire party. Anywho...ya there is this thing about vampires, ok I know there is people out there that have a thing with blood, hell I have a thing with blood...it's yummy ok, now leave me alone. It's not that I am a vampire...agh just go to this site. It's a gal who claims she's a vampire, and that she has this lust for blood. Well guess what missy, a lot of people like the taste of blood(hence why tons of people love blood saguages)...Ya I know I must have deranged friends including myself. But seriously I wouldn't go as far as calling yourself a vampire, which is just a mythical term that is used in foklore and whatnot. But actually I found the site interesting, but annoying at times where she kept refering to everyone else except herself(like all the readers) as human, but at the same time wants everyone to feel sympathy for her because she has this so called bloodlust...sure bloodlust is fun at times when yer with a certain somebody and ya want to get a bit evil and kinky, but sheesh don't ya know florencet lights bug us all...they annoy everybody, there so damn bright those things. Then she goes on and on about it all. But at the same times she tells all these things and tells ya it's up to you to know if your a vampire.

Ok I kinda got the same thing with the whole witch deal, you know if you are a witch or if your not, but hell I got way more advice about then his lady gives ya.

I've had friends say I was some kinda vampire, and sure I'm a bit dark at times, and yes I did know that there was people out there that actually lusted for blood, but I knew most of them were eaither very depressed or had locked themselves away in a dark damp corner somewhere, which is fun by the way, but let's not go into me. There is no such things as vampires, if they were such things they wouldn't have the intrige that they have now, and if they did excist, they would just be another thing that is screwin' everything up in this world...kinda like cearel(I can't friggin' well spell) killers, oh wait we already have those, we don't need more. So in my opinion sure there is people with a lust for blood, but they are just normal people. real vampires on the other hand only excist in our minds, they are what we want them to be.

Mood ~ Really REALLY pissed off!!
Music ~ Nada - Letting those dumb kids sleep

Ok Last night my problomatic niece had a friend over for a sleep over at our house, since Amber really wanted to see Sasha(her little friend) we just said sure. Not know what was to come that night. Sure Amber treats her mom like crap, and that is wrong 'cause Angie does everything for that little runt, she deserves a hella lot more respect from her own daughter then what she's gettin'. Anywho, she just turned 15 in January and is whaaa to young to be walkin' to the corner store at one-thrity in the morning, and so me being the only one up said, no.

Me: No you can't go to the store, it's almost 2 in the morning.

Amber: Fine then I'll go ask my mom

Me:(follows her down hallway) Don't wake up yer mom, she's sleeping.

Amber: (snotty voice)Mom, can I go to the store

Ang: No!!!

Amber: (whiney voice) Why not? We're just going to the corner store.

Ang: No!!!, it's 1:30 in the morning, and I don't want you up there at this time of night.

(meanwhile her friend who she hasn't seen in the longest time is totally stunned by ambers new "childish behavior", and my dad who is waken up be all this hears this, my mom can sleep through anything)

*Amber storms off to her room*

Me: Amber stop it, stop with the additude.

Amber: (whiney immature voice) No you stop, stop being so you.

Me: Amber, knock it off!!

*she tries to close the door on me, but I force it open*

Me: Stop with the additude!!!

Amber: I don't have a additude, your the one acting like my parents.

Me: Amber enough, stop being such a rotten immature three year old.

*the I closed the door on her*

This kids needs a good smack in the fuckin' face for a wake up call, she seriously thinkgs her shit don't stink, and that she's all grown up. Well let me tell you, she's far from it, trust me with that little show she put on last night, she showed nothin' but immaturity.

My dad heard it last night, and is absalutly furious with her, and he's going to give her a "what for" kinda talk tonight. Agh I still can't believe I've been left home alone with her. She's upstairs sleeping, and will probably sleep until Angie gets back from her visit in about a hour. But I was friggin' mad at her today, Angie that is. I told her I didn't want to be left alone with her, and the first dumb question she asks me is, "Are you afraid of her?" Why the hell would I be afraid of her? Hell it's she that's going to be pissin' her pants when she wakes up today, she's the one that is going to be trembling, 'cause if Angie finds blood puddles and a mangle corpse on the floor it ain't my fault, LOL!!! I swear if her little friend wasn't there I would of slapped her. But anywho, I called Angie up today after my dad woke me up sayin' I was going to be home alone with the brat. I didn't want to be home alone with her, she ain't my responsibility, so if she runs, there ain't nothing I can do about it. That's why i phoned her up and said, "Ummm where are you, and how fast can you get home?" But then she got all grouchy with me, and I'm like "hey she's your responsibility, not mine, and if you find her dead on the floor it ain't my fault!!"

Next time, they are sleeping in a hotel, that is if they don't want to be sliced to death by a chainsaw.

Mood ~ meh
Music ~ Matthew Good band - Weapon

I'm so utterally bored, I wish I could get a job from now until the day I leave, then I would have something to do, and get out of cleaning the two extra bedrooms we have for when Angie and Amber come down for some kinda of sugery Amber has to go to. Ha now she has to stop smokin'. She has to or the lump she has in her throat will get bigger. This is just the first of many more surgeryies she has to get, and this one is little, ain't nothin' much to it. Anywho back to being bored, ya it sucks, I ain't got nothin' to do, except clean like I already said, and listen to blairing music while cleaning...nobody is online, and there ain't to many people on the boards today eaither. I'm so friggin' bored!!! And so I decide to write about in me blog.

Anywho..looky, I'm so proud of it. It's like this is one of the best things I've done in Photoshop to date, and it's the first page I've done in photoshop for Ravenous, and now that I have way more confidence with the program I think I'm going to do all my pages in Photoshop from now on...anywho ya can find this page with all the text on it and whatnot on my Ravenous Site.

Well that's about it, hey if something interesting happens I'll let y'all know.

Mood ~ neh
Music ~ Norah Jones - Don't know why

The Sims is quiet a amusing game, I think I electicuted myself a few times during my six hour gameplay. And it was fun damn it, and I would so do again. And it is absalutly hillarious when their bladder goes, and they start grabbin' their crotch and hoppin' on one leg. Even more curious is as to why is their pee purple?

In the game I'm a guy with a purple mohawk, whos quiet lonely...but nah I saw to a social life, ya barely got time for it since he's always wanting something else. But anywho, what is even more funny is when I finally got the little bugger a girlfriend they kissed a lot right, so everytime I made 'em, there would be this cheesy love music...ya know the one they play when it's a cheesy love moment or something. Anywho it's funny as hell. What's even more funny is that when ya go kick the plastic flamingos in yer backyard they squeek, and I don't know why but evertime I make the poor guy do it, it just cracks me up for some unknown reason.

Hell the other house I had I was this chick with a husband and kid, the kid would go off to school, the husband would go off to work, then the poor gal was on her own, or was that a blessing, since her friggin' family would beg for eveything and so I had to meet there needs as well. But anywho....another thing that's fun to do is scaring people. Ha, all they do is go boogy woogey or something and the guy your scareing is like AGHHH, and it works everytime.

But anyways the game is a blast, so if ya haven't tryed it, and even if your not to heavy into sims like me, it's well worthe the money ya fork up to rent the sucker, just to see ya electricute or light your sim on fire, and of course to kick the plastic pink flamingos.

Mood ~ Tired, stressed out, but happy nontheless
Music ~ a mixture of things on winamp

God what a week it has been, I tell ya I think my back was goin' with all the stress I've been goin' through lately. But things are lookin' better, thank god. Well atleast I hope so.

Anyways I wonder how much a tablet would cost, ya know for photoshop. I don't have one, and have been doing' all that work with a damn mouse, and tablets are apperently easier to use and whatnot. But I ain't ever seen one. But I think I should buy one, everyone who I do know that CG's says that it is a must buy if I'm really serious into CGing. I guess I'll have to take a trip down Future shop to see if they got any. They must have, that or radioshake might have 'em. The thing is that I'm kinda broke at the moment, I wonder how much they are worthe...probably really expensive, but I could be wrong. Actually now that I think of it, I think I saw one on TV once a few years back when they had just invented them, and they were top notch quality, and really expensive. But the price on these things might of, and probably have gone down by now. Well alteast I hope so, not that the mouse is bad to paint with, it's just that it is god damned annoying at times.

Agh I'm so tired, but I guess staying up to four in the morning drawing then going to bed but staying up for yet another hour readin' will do that to ya. Agh Lestat is getting a bit more interestin' at last. It was good there for awhile then all of a sudden...I just didn't feel like readin' it for awhile. I guess I didn't like the fact that Lestat didn't want to turn Nicholas into a vampire, but gave in anyways, and did so. Ha it seems everyone he meets up with he turns into a creature of the night. But enough of Lestat, I actually started reading again, and loved the part with Armand in Nicholases house. I love how he is described of a haunt, that he's this pure glowin' white thing, but underneath it all he's just another demon festering upon the world. I dunno how Lestat just turned his back on the guy and just started tearin' the house apart for Nikki's violine. I tell ya Armand is a freaky little guy.

I want to draw something along the lines of a drawing of a vampire from the vampire chronicles, but agh I have so many other things to draw. Maybe one day I'll get to that. But right now I'm drawing this funky pic of Lt. Raziel...your all amazed it ain't Kain I'm drawin' eh?
And even more would say there amazed I ain't drawin' Kain naked...well no, sorry to disappoint you all, but no naked Kains at the moment. Although I have drawn a naked Lt. Raziel...God were all the fangirls at Nosgothic Realm happy about that one, let me tell ya. But originally it was drawn for Lilith, who was a major Raziel fan, but now I think she's loosing base with him, LOL!!!

Anywho I asked if anyone wanted to do any art trades or had requests..and I got three people asking for it, ha this was the first one I did for lichie, it's monkey from, "the adventures of Monkey" which is this old chinese show from god knows when, about this guy who rides around on a cloud whos kinda half monkey half human or something....anwyas the show is actualy based on a old chinese Myth. But anywho, I really like my shading in it, it actually turned out better then I thought it would, since I really haven't done any real life drawings for a long time that and I haven't done any pencil shading for the longest time as well.

Ya know I miss not having money...I'm always beggin' for money off of my mother, don't dare ask my dad, or I'll get the usualy lecture about why don't I take the pop cans back up, and blah blah blah...ya we do have the pop cans, but that means I have to take a huge friggin bag with me up to the store. So I usually wait until my dad just gets fet up with havin' all these pop cans, and then he takes action and actually drives me up to the recycleing place to get a buncha money for me cans. But anywho, I'm usually beggin' for money because outr house has like nothing, and I mean nothing in our house to eat. I wish my parents would good grocery shoopin' more often when I don't have money. But do they...no. That one of the things I can't wait for when I move up to Yellowknife, my sister always has tons of food in the fridge, and in the cupboards.

The Anti Moebius website, yes it's true this site is all about helping you stay away from that nasty little bugger, known as the Time Streaming Git Moebius. And with the help of this site, no more shall Moe manipulate the people of Nosgoth.....This site just cracks me up, ain't it obvious I'm such a LOK fangirl?

Mooooo...?



Ya can always count on friends to send ya the wierdest emails

Mood ~ Pissed
Music ~ Audioslave

I'm so bloomin' mad at the moment, damn the whole fuckin' world!!

Why is it that I always seem to be the eldest of the family no matter what my age? It always seems I'm smarter then a few people I know.... Why I don't know, maybe because I just know what is LOGICAL!? Rather then knowing or doing the ILLOGICAL!!!!

Like I said damn the whole fuckin' world!!! I'm so tired of all this nonsence. So tired of it, that it makes me sick. I can't fuckin' stand it no more. Why do I attract this kind of foolish illogical behavior from other people? And why is it that I am somehow always involved, whether I get involved myself for the sake of that person, or they get me involved, or something else does. Why me? And what gets me is are they so stupied they don't see it themselves? They must be, or they wouldn't be pullin' such idoiotic stunts. Some of the stupidity that I get from people is amazing, absaluting amazing, not to mention amusing at times. But damn am I ever tired of it involving me.

Not that I'll ever stop getting involved, these are the people I care about and love. Anyone ever gets in my way of helping family or a friend, are to be damned to hell. But still, it's stressfull being the all knowing guru, so to speak. And bloody hard at times. I do get tired of it, and ask why me? why do I always have to deal with it? I'm just so fuckin' mad at the moment, I just want to rip a certain someones face off!! And yell, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YA DOING!!?

Don't bother asking about it, I'm not going to say at all, even though I want to scream at the whole world, and tell it that it is bloody well unfair, but I think we all know that, it's just the people who know that and fuckin' well hate everything so much they gotta go and hurt the people that love them, and that's what is fuckin' well pissin' me off right now.

My friends, especially one known as Lilith, find the most amusing sites. I don't even know where to begin on how you would find a goofy little site like this. But it's damn cute, and funny enough to share it with you all. Enjoy the concert!!