Ya know.... I don't cry very often, espeically when it comes to games. I mean Aeris death scene from Final Fantasy 7 still makes me teary eyed...... but really not many games have ever made me cry. I guess on that short list I'm gonna have to add Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. The ending, it was sooo sad. I mean, ya relize it, everything...and then it dawns on ya, and yer just left there with this incrediable story that lingers on even after it's over. And still you sit there and think about it and it's just so very sad. And then ya watch it all unfold, ya watch the credits, and then all of a sudden a voice comes on whilst the MGS3 logo is up....and it's a very reconizable voice, and that voice says a few things and yer like OMG!!! And yea that was cool! Oh how I love the MGS series.
I wish it didn't have to end. This addition in the series was truely the best, and the most remarkable! The graphics were amongst some of the most beautiful I have ever seen. The story was breathtaking and the characters were unforgetable. I'm defiently gonna play it again. And write letters to the fine people on the staff to not give up on the MS series! AGH I don't want to know a gaming world without Snake! But well I guess all good things come to an end, sadly.
Oi I start work at my new job on Monday!
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
Friday, January 21, 2005
quiz time once again
I'm such a net junkie! XD
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Fangy
2. BloodFang9
3. TifaBabe
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I draw very well thank you!
2. fashion sence
3. the fact that I'm not so damn shy anymore!
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. At times I'm still incrediably shy
2. I get mad and ffusterated ever so easily.
3. I get depressed about my own art very easily and beat myself up about it.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. English
2. Scottish
3. Irish *apparently irish blood is somewheres in me* o.O
THREE THINGS THAT YOU FEAR:
1. Spiders
2. Alzhiemers
3. The evil socks under my bed!
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Computer time
2. Pencil and paper
3time to lsiten to music and drink green tea.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1: Roots red Canadian olympic team sweatshirt From Athens
2. Dark blue low rise, flare jeans
3 Fuzzy pink and green socks! =D
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR ARTISTS:
1. Velvet Revolver
2: Tool/Perfect Circle *hey they are the same... kinda...>.>*
2: Green Day
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Gwen Stefani ~ Rich Girl
2. Green Day ~ Holiday
3. Chevelle ~ Vitamin R
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. I wanna perfect using felts for colorin' pics and rock with the shadein' and whatnot.
2. Keeping a job for more then 5 months
3. Pencil shadein' and rock with that as well.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. My time and space to draw and whatnot and ot be left alone.
2. Respect. For it is key to any relationship.
3. Insanely perfect sex. ;p
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: (You be the judge...)
1. I'm really a demon for a underworld organization that deems to conquer the mortal world and make all of humanity out slaves to peel onions in giant kitches, with massive bowls and stoves and many huge pots! Not to forget the huge onions! You buggers will be sheddin' tears for years to come!
2. I'm wearin' incrediable sexy red sation undies and bra.
3. I find Jenovas head to be incrediable uber fascinateing, so much that anything severed from it's former limbs holds a dark mysterious glint of glee from within my eyes... >.>
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Big, elegant hands.
2. They're smell
3. Chest.... hair sometimes is good, but only on such people as Hugh Jackson when playinjg Wolvie... damn!
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Draw insanely cute kiddies
2. Watch wheel of fortune, it drives me insane!
3. Hit a spider with a broom whilst it is ont he cieling
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing.
2. Writing.
3. RPing.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Working on my new comic
2. Going on vacation to the carribbean. *I wish*
3. Dance
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Character and concept designer
2. Comic Artist
3. Giving up and workin' in McDonalds the rest of my life. Would you like fries with that?
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Italy, Mainly to see Rome and Venus
2. England
3. China, or hell, let's just say the orient! =D
KIDS NAMES:
1. Gabriel
2. Tristian
3. Aurora
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. To have my artwork and characters, worlds and whatnot remembere and honored in some sort of meaningful way.
2. Tell some people to fuck off!
3. Travel, see the world! I'm missin' so bloody much! >.<
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. Lilith
2. Rood
3. SOTR
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Fangy
2. BloodFang9
3. TifaBabe
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I draw very well thank you!
2. fashion sence
3. the fact that I'm not so damn shy anymore!
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. At times I'm still incrediably shy
2. I get mad and ffusterated ever so easily.
3. I get depressed about my own art very easily and beat myself up about it.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. English
2. Scottish
3. Irish *apparently irish blood is somewheres in me* o.O
THREE THINGS THAT YOU FEAR:
1. Spiders
2. Alzhiemers
3. The evil socks under my bed!
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Computer time
2. Pencil and paper
3time to lsiten to music and drink green tea.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1: Roots red Canadian olympic team sweatshirt From Athens
2. Dark blue low rise, flare jeans
3 Fuzzy pink and green socks! =D
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR ARTISTS:
1. Velvet Revolver
2: Tool/Perfect Circle *hey they are the same... kinda...>.>*
2: Green Day
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Gwen Stefani ~ Rich Girl
2. Green Day ~ Holiday
3. Chevelle ~ Vitamin R
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. I wanna perfect using felts for colorin' pics and rock with the shadein' and whatnot.
2. Keeping a job for more then 5 months
3. Pencil shadein' and rock with that as well.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. My time and space to draw and whatnot and ot be left alone.
2. Respect. For it is key to any relationship.
3. Insanely perfect sex. ;p
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE: (You be the judge...)
1. I'm really a demon for a underworld organization that deems to conquer the mortal world and make all of humanity out slaves to peel onions in giant kitches, with massive bowls and stoves and many huge pots! Not to forget the huge onions! You buggers will be sheddin' tears for years to come!
2. I'm wearin' incrediable sexy red sation undies and bra.
3. I find Jenovas head to be incrediable uber fascinateing, so much that anything severed from it's former limbs holds a dark mysterious glint of glee from within my eyes... >.>
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Big, elegant hands.
2. They're smell
3. Chest.... hair sometimes is good, but only on such people as Hugh Jackson when playinjg Wolvie... damn!
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Draw insanely cute kiddies
2. Watch wheel of fortune, it drives me insane!
3. Hit a spider with a broom whilst it is ont he cieling
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing.
2. Writing.
3. RPing.
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Working on my new comic
2. Going on vacation to the carribbean. *I wish*
3. Dance
THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Character and concept designer
2. Comic Artist
3. Giving up and workin' in McDonalds the rest of my life. Would you like fries with that?
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Italy, Mainly to see Rome and Venus
2. England
3. China, or hell, let's just say the orient! =D
KIDS NAMES:
1. Gabriel
2. Tristian
3. Aurora
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. To have my artwork and characters, worlds and whatnot remembere and honored in some sort of meaningful way.
2. Tell some people to fuck off!
3. Travel, see the world! I'm missin' so bloody much! >.<
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW OR DIE PAINFULLY:
1. Lilith
2. Rood
3. SOTR
Thursday, January 20, 2005
...... O.o
Finally got my new layout up and workin' on BA! Yeesh it took forever to get it straightened out! But it's up now! Wacka wacka woo!
Don't ask!
Anywho yea.... that's about it. I realy should write more but don't wanna, so to bloody bad! ;p
Oh and here's a quiz I found online. Stole from glass! Ain't I sweet eh? O.<
A - Accent: Cabadian I guess eh? ;)
B - Breast size: 36C
C - Chore you hate: Making phone calls to anyone, like to goverment offices and whatnot.
D - Dad's name: Klaus Dieter Wegner. Peter for a nick.
F - Favorite perfume: Way back int he day people used oerfume to cover up the stench that they're bodies left behind everywhere they went, simpley because they didn't bathe!! I do, so I don't need no freakin' perfume.
G - Gold or silver: Silver. Gold is to.... I dunno, corny.
H - Hometown: Coquitlam, BC, Canada *it's right smack next to Vancouver*.
I - Insomnia: Only when I'm wired on pop and have far to many ideas runnin' in my head onw hat to draw. Otherwise I'm good.
J - Job title: The wierd chick.
K - Kids: They're ok, plan to have oneof my own one day, but that's off in the far distant future.
L - Living arrangements: With parents, two cats, one dorky dog.
M - Mum's birthplace: Coquitlam... Yea we live in the same place... kinda borin'.
N - Number of pets you've had: emmmm..... *thinks back* I dunno... lots, we love animals in this house, however we don't want to many of them at the same time. O.<
O - Overnight hospital stays: None.
P - Phobia: Spiders
R - Religious affiliation: Former cultist at the temple of diet pepsi! But now I belong to the botherhood of green tea.
S - Siblings: One older sister, whom I love dearly but has a tendacy to drive me wacko!
T - Time you wake up: when my alarm goes off.
U - Unnatural hair colors you've worn: red, green, blue, tried blone but that didn't work out to well *sighs*.
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: Emmm brussels... those are terriable!
W - Worst habit: Procrastination.
X - X-rays you've had: Dental xray crap fromw hen I got my root canal...hoy... >.>
Y - Yummy foods you make: cookies and great KD with tuna.... and sushi!
Z - Zodiac sign: Scorpio... *makes a scorpian kinda sound* o.O
Don't ask!
Anywho yea.... that's about it. I realy should write more but don't wanna, so to bloody bad! ;p
Oh and here's a quiz I found online. Stole from glass! Ain't I sweet eh? O.<
A - Accent: Cabadian I guess eh? ;)
B - Breast size: 36C
C - Chore you hate: Making phone calls to anyone, like to goverment offices and whatnot.
D - Dad's name: Klaus Dieter Wegner. Peter for a nick.
F - Favorite perfume: Way back int he day people used oerfume to cover up the stench that they're bodies left behind everywhere they went, simpley because they didn't bathe!! I do, so I don't need no freakin' perfume.
G - Gold or silver: Silver. Gold is to.... I dunno, corny.
H - Hometown: Coquitlam, BC, Canada *it's right smack next to Vancouver*.
I - Insomnia: Only when I'm wired on pop and have far to many ideas runnin' in my head onw hat to draw. Otherwise I'm good.
J - Job title: The wierd chick.
K - Kids: They're ok, plan to have oneof my own one day, but that's off in the far distant future.
L - Living arrangements: With parents, two cats, one dorky dog.
M - Mum's birthplace: Coquitlam... Yea we live in the same place... kinda borin'.
N - Number of pets you've had: emmmm..... *thinks back* I dunno... lots, we love animals in this house, however we don't want to many of them at the same time. O.<
O - Overnight hospital stays: None.
P - Phobia: Spiders
R - Religious affiliation: Former cultist at the temple of diet pepsi! But now I belong to the botherhood of green tea.
S - Siblings: One older sister, whom I love dearly but has a tendacy to drive me wacko!
T - Time you wake up: when my alarm goes off.
U - Unnatural hair colors you've worn: red, green, blue, tried blone but that didn't work out to well *sighs*.
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat: Emmm brussels... those are terriable!
W - Worst habit: Procrastination.
X - X-rays you've had: Dental xray crap fromw hen I got my root canal...hoy... >.>
Y - Yummy foods you make: cookies and great KD with tuna.... and sushi!
Z - Zodiac sign: Scorpio... *makes a scorpian kinda sound* o.O
Friday, January 14, 2005
Craptastic!
Do ever feel that yer work is all for not? That everything you have ever one is wortheles? yea that's how I feel right now. I hate this feeling. It's this sickness that inbeds itself in yer gut and twists and turns you inside out before ya can do anything about it, and then when it strikes you fall into this black void. Which you try ever so depsseratly to escape.
But there isn't any real escape. Since any artist would know that this form of depresstion is common. And that it's always there. Waiting.
Life sucks. >.<
But there isn't any real escape. Since any artist would know that this form of depresstion is common. And that it's always there. Waiting.
Life sucks. >.<
Monday, January 03, 2005
Hrmmm
Hrmmm O.o
I haven't posted in here for awhile and I really don't got much to say.... ummm oh my dad found his long lost brother in Germany.... yep... don't know many other details.
O.< Well ummm... yea. Look penguins!
I haven't posted in here for awhile and I really don't got much to say.... ummm oh my dad found his long lost brother in Germany.... yep... don't know many other details.
O.< Well ummm... yea. Look penguins!
Sunday, December 26, 2004
Christmas List!
Oki doki! this is the list of christmas swag!
Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater.
Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater, Limited edition stradegy guide, including art booklet.
Final Fantasy 12 on hold for me at EB, prepayed and all!
2 pink running type suit things, uber comfy and very stylish.
A bright multi colored sweater from the Gap!
A Teddy bear... it's so soft! *melts*
Black and white striped knee socks =D
Two pairs of fluffy socks *they are heaven*
Pink gloves from the gap as well....
1 Red Canadian Olympic 2004 team Roots sweatshirt.
Wolf statuette.
Mini mobile radio.
PSM magazine.
Subscription to PSM for a year.
Tons of chocolate.
A new pink winter coat with fur on the hood... I look like a Eskimo! *Err aberoriginal(sp?) incase my sister reads this.... >.>*
A FEATHER BED!!!! *drools* It's so soft!!!
A necklace that has me name on it.
Yep that's it... *goes off to play MGS3: snake Eater*
Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater.
Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater, Limited edition stradegy guide, including art booklet.
Final Fantasy 12 on hold for me at EB, prepayed and all!
2 pink running type suit things, uber comfy and very stylish.
A bright multi colored sweater from the Gap!
A Teddy bear... it's so soft! *melts*
Black and white striped knee socks =D
Two pairs of fluffy socks *they are heaven*
Pink gloves from the gap as well....
1 Red Canadian Olympic 2004 team Roots sweatshirt.
Wolf statuette.
Mini mobile radio.
PSM magazine.
Subscription to PSM for a year.
Tons of chocolate.
A new pink winter coat with fur on the hood... I look like a Eskimo! *Err aberoriginal(sp?) incase my sister reads this.... >.>*
A FEATHER BED!!!! *drools* It's so soft!!!
A necklace that has me name on it.
Yep that's it... *goes off to play MGS3: snake Eater*
Monday, December 13, 2004
hey hey
Looky looky lue!
Umm yea don' ask about that... but looky anyways! What ya think of the new layout eh? Ocelot is to damn cool! I was gonna make this big green Snake thing...to go with the whole army/jungle thing... but I decoded against it and went with Ocey instead! HA Ocey sounds funny! *laughs*
Anywho yea... that's about it... See I haven't neglected my poor lil' blog that much, I gave it a new layout before christmas...>.>
Oh well see yaz!
Umm yea don' ask about that... but looky anyways! What ya think of the new layout eh? Ocelot is to damn cool! I was gonna make this big green Snake thing...to go with the whole army/jungle thing... but I decoded against it and went with Ocey instead! HA Ocey sounds funny! *laughs*
Anywho yea... that's about it... See I haven't neglected my poor lil' blog that much, I gave it a new layout before christmas...>.>
Oh well see yaz!
Saturday, December 11, 2004
O.O
If you didn't manage to get through the entire third trailer for the new FF7:AC and not get goosbumps and want to run across the room like an insane idiot, then you are not a FF7 and never will be!
Just got to the trailer section and hit the third one there! If ya been there recently ya would know which one is new and whatnot.
Anywho yep... that's it from me! Oh! And btw FF7:AC is supposed to be reasled in March/05 ^___^
Just got to the trailer section and hit the third one there! If ya been there recently ya would know which one is new and whatnot.
Anywho yep... that's it from me! Oh! And btw FF7:AC is supposed to be reasled in March/05 ^___^
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Phantom
Hey I was just watching the tube awhile ago...and I saw something for a phantom of the opera movie???? O.O Err wow, and I mean I big WOW!
I love phantom!! I used to know every single word to ever single song in that musical... unfortunatly we lost the tapes for it and now I don't know ever single word to every single song, but it will all come back to me when I hear it again!
Anywho they're making a movie out of it.... and it's gonna be the musical, just like on stage... yea this may be such old news to some people... but it's news to me! I want creepy house photoshop brushes and I mean interior brushes...ya know the inside of the houses.... just for something to play around with and I can't find a thing anywhere close as to what I want... I should just learn how to make my own brushes.... but I'm to lazy top be bothered or I'm to busy with projects...oh wellz, I'll keep on looking!
I love phantom!! I used to know every single word to ever single song in that musical... unfortunatly we lost the tapes for it and now I don't know ever single word to every single song, but it will all come back to me when I hear it again!
Anywho they're making a movie out of it.... and it's gonna be the musical, just like on stage... yea this may be such old news to some people... but it's news to me! I want creepy house photoshop brushes and I mean interior brushes...ya know the inside of the houses.... just for something to play around with and I can't find a thing anywhere close as to what I want... I should just learn how to make my own brushes.... but I'm to lazy top be bothered or I'm to busy with projects...oh wellz, I'll keep on looking!
Thursday, November 04, 2004
FUCKING HELL!!!
Mood: Fuck!!!
Listening to: Gwen Steffani ~ What are you wating for
Ok this is how it begins.... yesterday my niece and I got into a bit of a battle. She came home sick and she knows the rules, if yer sick go to bed, because the thing is that she lies constantly about this and that, including being sick. So we don't want to make her so called sick days pleasent *because we all know she isn't sick, she was eating a ton of candy yesterday*, if yer sick go rest and get better.Anywho I say to her yesterday afternoon, ya need to go to bed, like now, your not supposed to have your butt planted on the couch in front of the TV, this is not part of the deal. Then all of a sudden the additude comes bursting out! "Oh whatever, Elsie, I can sit here if I want" and I said "Ummm no ya can't want me to call grandma and have her tell ya to go to bed", and she in her additude said, "Sure, whatever."So I did, she got pissed at me because she didn't think I would do it in the first place. Then she would not get off the phone, whilst I was trying to make a call... another huge battle... She screamed at me, told me to fuck off and said I was a fucking bitch, all because she didn't want to follow house rules, rules which had been set for her.
In all truths she doesn't have any major rules, she just has to respect us and keep her room clean and she can't even do that!Anywho... I finally get my mom on the phone, and my niece wants to talk to her, fine, on the phone she gets and she says I've had one of my sleeping pills.... my mom was outraged with her because we all sat down with her and talked about the rules of this sleeping pill *she's isomonic*, and that she is NOT to take them during the day, only at night, she knew this and still she disobeyed DOCTORS orders.
Anywho she took more then one, she took nine sleeping pills *the whole jar actually*, along with some wine, so we called 911 and got an ambulence to come and get her...nothing but that pissy additude thinking her shit doesn't stink the whole way there.She was intoxicated 18 times over because of those pills and the wine... my dads wine to! She couldn't even stand and her words were all slurred! And she kept saying she was fine, fine my ass! Anyways she gets to the hospital and she treats the nurses and doctors, everyone that knows there is something wrong with her and wants to help her *including me and my mom*, like complete and utter crap!!She had to drink charcole, she told them off and said, "No way, I'm not drinking that", and they said, "Fine, don't drink it, because if you don't we will shove a tube up your nose and do it that way". Gotta love the nurses eh? But just the whole night she was swearing and being a snot nosed prissy bitch!!I can't believe it, I was so embarresed! How can anyone treat someone, especially people that are there to help you, like they are lower beings then you? She stompped all over them. >.<
Anyways she's refused all the help, shrinks and all that, they have given her and she refused it, and trust me, she NEEDS help, a ton of mental help, because now she is a threat to her own life and to others.But she's going home, I don't fucking care anymore, she treated me, my dad and my mom, espeically my mom, who has done nothing but bend over backwards for her, like shit. I'm sorry but that little piece of fucking shit doesn't deserve the rights to even breath! Even after all of today, we've been on the phone with doctors and social services and she keeps calling "come pick me up!" because she had to stay overnight.
Fuck it, I don't care anymore!!!
Listening to: Gwen Steffani ~ What are you wating for
Ok this is how it begins.... yesterday my niece and I got into a bit of a battle. She came home sick and she knows the rules, if yer sick go to bed, because the thing is that she lies constantly about this and that, including being sick. So we don't want to make her so called sick days pleasent *because we all know she isn't sick, she was eating a ton of candy yesterday*, if yer sick go rest and get better.Anywho I say to her yesterday afternoon, ya need to go to bed, like now, your not supposed to have your butt planted on the couch in front of the TV, this is not part of the deal. Then all of a sudden the additude comes bursting out! "Oh whatever, Elsie, I can sit here if I want" and I said "Ummm no ya can't want me to call grandma and have her tell ya to go to bed", and she in her additude said, "Sure, whatever."So I did, she got pissed at me because she didn't think I would do it in the first place. Then she would not get off the phone, whilst I was trying to make a call... another huge battle... She screamed at me, told me to fuck off and said I was a fucking bitch, all because she didn't want to follow house rules, rules which had been set for her.
In all truths she doesn't have any major rules, she just has to respect us and keep her room clean and she can't even do that!Anywho... I finally get my mom on the phone, and my niece wants to talk to her, fine, on the phone she gets and she says I've had one of my sleeping pills.... my mom was outraged with her because we all sat down with her and talked about the rules of this sleeping pill *she's isomonic*, and that she is NOT to take them during the day, only at night, she knew this and still she disobeyed DOCTORS orders.
Anywho she took more then one, she took nine sleeping pills *the whole jar actually*, along with some wine, so we called 911 and got an ambulence to come and get her...nothing but that pissy additude thinking her shit doesn't stink the whole way there.She was intoxicated 18 times over because of those pills and the wine... my dads wine to! She couldn't even stand and her words were all slurred! And she kept saying she was fine, fine my ass! Anyways she gets to the hospital and she treats the nurses and doctors, everyone that knows there is something wrong with her and wants to help her *including me and my mom*, like complete and utter crap!!She had to drink charcole, she told them off and said, "No way, I'm not drinking that", and they said, "Fine, don't drink it, because if you don't we will shove a tube up your nose and do it that way". Gotta love the nurses eh? But just the whole night she was swearing and being a snot nosed prissy bitch!!I can't believe it, I was so embarresed! How can anyone treat someone, especially people that are there to help you, like they are lower beings then you? She stompped all over them. >.<
Anyways she's refused all the help, shrinks and all that, they have given her and she refused it, and trust me, she NEEDS help, a ton of mental help, because now she is a threat to her own life and to others.But she's going home, I don't fucking care anymore, she treated me, my dad and my mom, espeically my mom, who has done nothing but bend over backwards for her, like shit. I'm sorry but that little piece of fucking shit doesn't deserve the rights to even breath! Even after all of today, we've been on the phone with doctors and social services and she keeps calling "come pick me up!" because she had to stay overnight.
Fuck it, I don't care anymore!!!
Sunday, October 24, 2004
meh
'Tis dull rainy day is my birthday! w00t! Meh it always rains at this time of year. Anyways yea... I'm 24 now... O.< I feel so old! nah jk!
Anywho I got a bunch of stuffs, video games and whatnot. Some nice pink satin jammies... Yea I said pink now shut up!
Plus last night I went out to the Keg, had me some honey BBQ ribs and calamari. *licks lips* Anywho I'm doing all my partying on halooween, that's the best part of having your birthday so close to haloween, ya can get fanyc dinners and party!
Anywho I got a bunch of stuffs, video games and whatnot. Some nice pink satin jammies... Yea I said pink now shut up!
Plus last night I went out to the Keg, had me some honey BBQ ribs and calamari. *licks lips* Anywho I'm doing all my partying on halooween, that's the best part of having your birthday so close to haloween, ya can get fanyc dinners and party!
Thursday, October 21, 2004
thingy dingy
I KNOW: how to draw and paint and whatnot... O.<
I WANT: a full time job that pays me MONEY!!! >.<
I HAVE: a bad temper at times
I WISH: things would turn out better for my niece at the moment, but she doesn't seem to want nor care of the love and attention we give her.
I HATE: Everyone... well at times i hate everyone, but not everyone... I'm confused @_@
I MISS: all my friends that are somewhere else but here!
I FEAR: SPIDERS!!!!!
I HEAR: the dog....
I SEARCH: for a way to give my art and stories to the world
I WONDER: if I will ever recieve all what I desire and have given to so many
I REGRET: nothing... seriously!
I LOVE: Lilith, Rood, My Art, DA, This blog, My dog Sisko....
I ACHE: deeply for something that I cannot grasp at this moment, and no it's not a relationship of having a man in my life, it's something personal and for me.... but it's kinda out of my reach at the moment.
I CARE: for a hella lot of people, for their rights as a human being, and I am shamed at humanity to see one another put people down for being gay or something? What is wrong with this world when someone has to come upw ith a dumn excuse such as , "Gay people have a behavior distortion, a mind disease", simple because they cann't except people for who they are!
I ALWAYS: draw, and wash my hands....
I AM NOT: the most brilliant person alive, but alteast I do what I do in style!
I DANCE: any chance I get
I SING: when no one is around to hear my terriable voice! LOL
I CRY: hardly, but I will cry when I am depressed, but I usually bottle myself up, and rarely ever put myself in such a state and when I finally do break down I cry alone, in my room away from prying eyes.
I DO: love animals!
I FIGHT: for what I believe in, and I will always fight for that and for my friends and family!
I WRITE: my own stories and whatnot, some poetry occastionally...
I WIN: when I least expect it
I LOSE: almost everything, I don't got lady luck on my side.
I CONFUSE: everyone! JOY!
I LISTEN: to a lot of various kinds of music!
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: painting
I NEED: a job
I AM HAPPY: when I'm alone and no one is pestering me constantly!! >.<
I SHOULD HAVE: did better today at my lame group interview... oh well...
I WANT: a full time job that pays me MONEY!!! >.<
I HAVE: a bad temper at times
I WISH: things would turn out better for my niece at the moment, but she doesn't seem to want nor care of the love and attention we give her.
I HATE: Everyone... well at times i hate everyone, but not everyone... I'm confused @_@
I MISS: all my friends that are somewhere else but here!
I FEAR: SPIDERS!!!!!
I HEAR: the dog....
I SEARCH: for a way to give my art and stories to the world
I WONDER: if I will ever recieve all what I desire and have given to so many
I REGRET: nothing... seriously!
I LOVE: Lilith, Rood, My Art, DA, This blog, My dog Sisko....
I ACHE: deeply for something that I cannot grasp at this moment, and no it's not a relationship of having a man in my life, it's something personal and for me.... but it's kinda out of my reach at the moment.
I CARE: for a hella lot of people, for their rights as a human being, and I am shamed at humanity to see one another put people down for being gay or something? What is wrong with this world when someone has to come upw ith a dumn excuse such as , "Gay people have a behavior distortion, a mind disease", simple because they cann't except people for who they are!
I ALWAYS: draw, and wash my hands....
I AM NOT: the most brilliant person alive, but alteast I do what I do in style!
I DANCE: any chance I get
I SING: when no one is around to hear my terriable voice! LOL
I CRY: hardly, but I will cry when I am depressed, but I usually bottle myself up, and rarely ever put myself in such a state and when I finally do break down I cry alone, in my room away from prying eyes.
I DO: love animals!
I FIGHT: for what I believe in, and I will always fight for that and for my friends and family!
I WRITE: my own stories and whatnot, some poetry occastionally...
I WIN: when I least expect it
I LOSE: almost everything, I don't got lady luck on my side.
I CONFUSE: everyone! JOY!
I LISTEN: to a lot of various kinds of music!
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: painting
I NEED: a job
I AM HAPPY: when I'm alone and no one is pestering me constantly!! >.<
I SHOULD HAVE: did better today at my lame group interview... oh well...
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
Flash!!
Oh my god! I just got flash and I'm making a movie as we speak! Mwahahaha pheer the insanity! Although this one I'm making is more or less a practice run, I just tossedin a bunch of stuff and therefore made a movie! I'm coloing it all now. Joy.... >.>
I want to make a funny FF7 spoof with it next, but I have no ideas! >.< Anyways yea, it's soo complex, makes photoshop look like nothing! But I've already figured out how to animimate, next step is to add sound! maybe if I beg my mom enough she'll get me a cheap microphone, they're only 20 bucks! =( Although I highly doubt it. *le sigh*
Anyways yea.....I should be painting tho' I got so much artsey crap to do it isn't even funny and most of it is for other people! >.< My art is begining to be high in demand these days! Which is good, finally I'm gettin' a little bit of reconition! Took me almost three years to get it!
I want to change the layoutof this blog, but I have no nice shiney and clean HTML layout ideas... so I probably won't change it until after christmas... which is a shame. I don't think I've ever left a layout on th blog for this long? I could be wrong tho'. That Defiance one did last for long while, still gots it in my files!
Anyways yea....enough said from me, good night!
I want to make a funny FF7 spoof with it next, but I have no ideas! >.< Anyways yea, it's soo complex, makes photoshop look like nothing! But I've already figured out how to animimate, next step is to add sound! maybe if I beg my mom enough she'll get me a cheap microphone, they're only 20 bucks! =( Although I highly doubt it. *le sigh*
Anyways yea.....I should be painting tho' I got so much artsey crap to do it isn't even funny and most of it is for other people! >.< My art is begining to be high in demand these days! Which is good, finally I'm gettin' a little bit of reconition! Took me almost three years to get it!
I want to change the layoutof this blog, but I have no nice shiney and clean HTML layout ideas... so I probably won't change it until after christmas... which is a shame. I don't think I've ever left a layout on th blog for this long? I could be wrong tho'. That Defiance one did last for long while, still gots it in my files!
Anyways yea....enough said from me, good night!
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
eep
Oh my god I've been a naughty girl, I haven't written a single thing in here for awhile now...bad me! Well the thing is that I've been findin' my DA journal much more useful, but don't worry I haven't abandonded this lil' bugger yet!
Ummm...now what to blog about? That's a good question? Nothing much that is very interesting has been going on in my life, although my niece has been driving me nuts, not to the extent that she was eailer but still there is the insanity and the maddness.
I have to figure out what I want for me birthday, since it is coming up soon. But the only things I want are flippin' expencesive!!! I want flash MX 2004!! That's what I want, can ya imagine all the insane animations I would make outta that baby? huh? INSANE! But the thing is that it costs far to much! Something along the lines of 200 - 300 bucks! See what I mean... pricey as hell!
But I sooooo want it! *cries* =P Although I guess I could settle for those boots me mother has been wanting to get me, I do love them....but flash dammit.... well if I can't get flash I would settle for clothing, since fashion is always good and prehaps some art supplies, that's always good to! Ya see all the latest things I'm into ya can't find anywheres around here! I would love to get 'Last Exile' on DVD. I love that anime! It's one of my current obsesstions, along with anything Inyuasha! I would imagine Inuyasha stuff would be easier to find, although it would be costly...that's what people should do, take me to one of those oriental malls and buy me Inyuasha stuffs! JOY!
Ummm...now what to blog about? That's a good question? Nothing much that is very interesting has been going on in my life, although my niece has been driving me nuts, not to the extent that she was eailer but still there is the insanity and the maddness.
I have to figure out what I want for me birthday, since it is coming up soon. But the only things I want are flippin' expencesive!!! I want flash MX 2004!! That's what I want, can ya imagine all the insane animations I would make outta that baby? huh? INSANE! But the thing is that it costs far to much! Something along the lines of 200 - 300 bucks! See what I mean... pricey as hell!
But I sooooo want it! *cries* =P Although I guess I could settle for those boots me mother has been wanting to get me, I do love them....but flash dammit.... well if I can't get flash I would settle for clothing, since fashion is always good and prehaps some art supplies, that's always good to! Ya see all the latest things I'm into ya can't find anywheres around here! I would love to get 'Last Exile' on DVD. I love that anime! It's one of my current obsesstions, along with anything Inyuasha! I would imagine Inuyasha stuff would be easier to find, although it would be costly...that's what people should do, take me to one of those oriental malls and buy me Inyuasha stuffs! JOY!
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Green Day and Great Big Sea
Well next Friday I'm off to see Great big Sea. they're a Canadian band that plays old foldk inda music with the irish fiddle sound and whatnot. They're actually pretty cool and pretty popular with people of all ages.
Anywho yea....plus I'm off to see Green Day in November! =D
Yea I'm boring and make boring blogs when I haven't blogged for awhile!
Anywho yea....plus I'm off to see Green Day in November! =D
Yea I'm boring and make boring blogs when I haven't blogged for awhile!
Saturday, September 18, 2004
family! hate 'em!
AGHHH!!!! Ya know when they say ya love family members but ya don't have to like them???Well right now I DO NOT like my niece!ok well my niece asked last night if she could spend the night at her friends, my mother said yes, but she was to come home alone so she could have dinner with us then she would drive her over. Well she brought her friend with her after school and my mother was mad at her *furious actually because they had agreed upon the situation earlier*, so the entire time she was here I was with her. O.< So I was always telling her what to do and what not to do because when she is with her friends she comes a snot up lil' brat, and she was doin' a bunch of shit she wasn't supposed to do. So anyways.....my mother wants to make a point to her and goes to pick up my dad from work and in doing so goes and hangs out at the bar with him. She stays out longer *like two hours* so I have to deal with her and her friend. And she was snoty to me the entire time...I could of killed her. Anywho she calls up my mother a few times and she simple states that she will come home in her own time. Clearly this point was made to my dear lil' niece. Anywho, also my mom didn't want her on the computer with her friend because technically this is my dads "home office" and therefore she didn't want the kids messin' it up so my mom said stay on the computer...and I was like...but I wanna get off the computer! Then of course my niece wnated it and I simpley said, "nope I'm on it" And then she got mad at me *of course* and said, that's not fair your always on it". Adn then I simpley stated again" I'm on it, and I have orders to not let you on it" then of course she ran upstairs, or rather stomping upstairs.She is SO going to get a lecture tommorow.... I hate 16 year old kids that think their shit don't stick!Well atleast my interview at Coast Mountain Sports went dandy!
Thursday, September 16, 2004
FFX-2! Yay!
Been playin' Final Fantasy X-2 again. Dunno why tho' jsut feel like having some fun fun fun...girl fun....video game fun! yea I can't wait for FFXII! I need a new FF, I mean FFX-2 was great and all, but it was new ya know? And I can't afford to get FFXI, so that puts that out the window...and so far no one has released any good RPG's to take up the time btween now and FF12!
AGH I have to update my computer here! And it's taking forever!! >.< Yeesh! Why me? I always get stuck with the updates? But thena gain maye it's a good thing, my father figure doesn't know the first thing about computers, my mom is ok but not excellent, she gets scared when something pops up, and my niece....well she don't know anything eaither. So maybe it is a good thing I do all the annoyin' work, that way atleast we have a computer! *sighs* Still not fair tho'!
Anywho got a interview at Coast Mountain sports tommorow evening at 8pm. What a strange time for a interview eh? I usually get them in the afternoon. Oh well, I just hope they don't surprise me with one of those group interviews, I HATE those! And to tell ya the truth I think most people do! I don't see where it gets them really, ya got to hire someone at some point in time, so why go through all the fuss over ten thousand interviews to sell clothing and shoes!?
Oi it seems Squenix is going mega over with this whole revamped FF7 thing, now Vincent has a game as well, it takes place a year before AC and a year after FF7. o.O Agh I forgot where the link is, but if ya clicky on my DA account up there you'll find that my journal there has all the info and the link to the article on IGN if ya want to read up on it.
Yeesh these updates are taking forever! >.<
AGH I have to update my computer here! And it's taking forever!! >.< Yeesh! Why me? I always get stuck with the updates? But thena gain maye it's a good thing, my father figure doesn't know the first thing about computers, my mom is ok but not excellent, she gets scared when something pops up, and my niece....well she don't know anything eaither. So maybe it is a good thing I do all the annoyin' work, that way atleast we have a computer! *sighs* Still not fair tho'!
Anywho got a interview at Coast Mountain sports tommorow evening at 8pm. What a strange time for a interview eh? I usually get them in the afternoon. Oh well, I just hope they don't surprise me with one of those group interviews, I HATE those! And to tell ya the truth I think most people do! I don't see where it gets them really, ya got to hire someone at some point in time, so why go through all the fuss over ten thousand interviews to sell clothing and shoes!?
Oi it seems Squenix is going mega over with this whole revamped FF7 thing, now Vincent has a game as well, it takes place a year before AC and a year after FF7. o.O Agh I forgot where the link is, but if ya clicky on my DA account up there you'll find that my journal there has all the info and the link to the article on IGN if ya want to read up on it.
Yeesh these updates are taking forever! >.<
Friday, September 03, 2004
The Killers!
Off to see a concert tonight! Woooo! Gonna go see the Killers! They're a awesome band, a not really all known band.... but they seem to be growing popular since the show is sold out. But then again most people go because it's a cheap concert! lol!!
Anyways yea...its going to be much fun! I'll tell mroe about it when I get back. =P
Anyways yea...its going to be much fun! I'll tell mroe about it when I get back. =P
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
She's here!
Well today is the day, my niece is here! She arrived at 8:15 this evening! yea ok I'll jsut go and shut up now!
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